27.11.09

Lay no eye upon my eye, lay no voice upon my crying. Set no truth above my lie, shed no tear upon my crying.

So i was at home the whole day. Went to the mosque just to see sheep slaughtering and brought home 4 packets. How boring this year's Aidiladha. Nyet.

Just so you know, i am no longer your typical soft hearted girl people. I hold grudges. Be it you are my dearest or NOT. Accept the way i am, for who i am now. Cos some motherfvckers made me turn to be in this way and only my, myself and i can change Syarm.

Other than that, Au revoir.

Syarm Hetf.♥

Hatred is beauty, 11/27/2009 08:09:00 PM.

24.11.09

It's time for me to say my own freedom of speech.

Do you guys actually think out of the fvcking box?

I bet no right?

Well, what i meant "HARDCORE" kids is actually i AM referring to DEATHCORE kids.

Who the fuck are you people to shut my holes up huh?

Oh oh, i'm responding to the question, "If "hardcore" kids do hardcore dance, then why you metalheads HEADBANG?"

Are you stupid? ARE YOU THAT STUPID? The traditional of headbanging in metal scene has been going on ever since Black Sabbath was formed, or perhaps, the beginning of heavy metal scene.

Don't ever compare between these two scene. JUST DON'T.

No matter how much you people wanna kill me just for this shit, i will not tolerate to do the same thing as well. I am NOT your typical soft-hearted chick.

Well, this a big FUCK YOU to some of you major suckers.

Syarm Hetf.♥

Hatred is beauty, 11/24/2009 11:38:00 PM.

22.11.09

NEXT TIME, THERE SHOULD BE ANOTHER DEATH UPON ARRIVAL!

Wanna know why? Cos yesterday's awesome motherfvcking gig made my fvcking day.

Those bands, except for Shadows of Miasma, made me headbanged and moshed so hard that i have bruises all over. I had my left hand skinned. Thanks to that fvcking "so tak perlu" wooden fence near the stage.

Fvck it. They shouldn't put that fence there. It is so unnecessary damn it.

Stillborn made me headbang. Unfortunately only Tina and I headbanged to that band. Haiyaa.

Next band, i don't give a damn cos i'm not really into that band.

After that, Incarnation of Seth performed. Though my brother is no longer in that band, but they do still kick asses. Their new original is damn eargasmic to my ear. Sadly, the chicklets dominated for that band.

Went outside and chill, we were interviewed by Singapore's own Razor TV. Heheheh! Coolio i know. :D

Whorehouse Butchery, Truth Be Known and Wormrot kicks asses too! Truth Be Known is the reason why my left hand was skinned. But hell, it's a metal gig and surely there will be bruises all over. And as for Wormrot, they're good but not much moshing. Oh yeah! During their performance, i was having a slight fever. Unlucky siol. Heheh. But thank God i'm fine now! :D

NAFRAT PERFORMED THE BEST! It was so goddamn hectic. Squeezy, fat dudes moshed here and there, we chicklets headbanged so hard and i got to body surfed three times! Hell yeah!

After Nafrat performed, went outside and met Sufii. I missed out a few bands. Sad but true.

I helped him to gatecrash in for the gig. Heh. Better thank me booboo! xD

Shadows of Miasma performed, hardcore kids were in it. We, the metalfvckingheads, had a great time making fun of their bro0oo0ot4a4a4l hardcore dance. Dafi's friend literally lay on the floor and did the swimming thingy. Hahaha! I swear, the chicklets and i, few guys cracked our asses off.

Fvck you all deaFcore fvckers. I felt so satisfied as i get to make fun of them. Seriously, fvck them. Fvck them hard, but do you guys really wanna fvck those losers? L M A O.

After they performed, Thy Fallen Kingdom performed. As usual, they kicked asses to the max. Sadly, they only sang three songs due to running out of time. Cheebye laaa! They managed to sing The Neverending War, Unchained and The Last Day. Fvck siaaa! I wanted then to perform the song, "The Observer". Damnitdamnitdamnit! Well, even though they only get to perform three songs, they really made us headbanged and moshed. Kudos. \m/

After that, all of us decided to leave. Trained down to tamp, and Tina, Sonia and Zul alighted at Pasir Ris. Left only me, Sufii, Afiq, Mech and Dafi. Went Mcd as Sufii was hungry. Heh.

Yadayada, all of us separated. Left me, Sufii and Afiq. Accompanied Afiq to the bus stop and waited for the bus no.3 to come. And finally, Sufii sent me home. Thanks a lot booboo. :)

Oh ya, i'm missing out something.

AZRI! I NEED PICTURESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!

Horns up y'all! \m/

Syarm Hetf.♥

Hatred is beauty, 11/22/2009 04:16:00 PM.

20.11.09

ONE MORE DAY TO DEATH UPON ARRIVAL III!

Can't wait to headbang and mosh till i die in that very own pit. LOL.

Let's dominate the place tomorrow, my dear chicklets. \m/

Oh btw, my boncet is getting bigger. O.o

Thanks to the food that was offered at my workplace and eating late night at home.

(Y)

Syarm Hetf.♥

Hatred is beauty, 11/20/2009 03:49:00 PM.

17.11.09

I CAN'T WAIT FOR DEATH UPON ARRIVAL III!

Now you know addicted i am for gigs. Hahahaha. I need to mosh more to headbanging. Cos i'm already working at Pastamania and if i were to do cleaning, i have to bend down a lot of times and my neck's gonna hurt REALLY badly.

I love my job soooooooooo much. And it's a bloody fact. :D

Saturday, please hurry. I can't wait and prove to the guys of our girl power for DUA III! \m/

Syarm Hetf.♥

Hatred is beauty, 11/17/2009 11:12:00 AM.

15.11.09

DEATH BY BROWNIES GIG WAS THE SHIT!

I enjoyed the gig, in fact, one of the best gigs in 2009! Met the rockers at Lavender MRT. Walked down to the gig location. I went inside the pit straight away. Xanadoo performed. All of us were moshing and headbanging. I headbanged beside Jaarvis and the band was the shit!

After that Mercenarian performed. It's awesome. And again, i sang Master of Puppets! Sorry guys, i think i did screwed most part of the timings and the lyrics. Actually, i don't wanna sing. I wanted to mosh for the song and sing along. But this Rosewood insisted me to sing but i rejected the offer. All of a sudden, Sufi and Fit pushed so hard that i was at the "stage". So yeah, had to sing. But i enjoyed la ehh. Thanks a lot guys. :)

After that, a few deathcore bands performed. Don't really like deathcore. Went out from that pit. But Beyond Suicidal performed Unanswered and i only get to see them performed that song for the last few seconds. Bleargh. Fit, Sufi and I made fun of the hardcore dancing shit. Haha.

Roadkill performed next. That band was awesome too. We actually danced more to headbanged to most of their songs. The tunes makes me go gelek-gelek uhh. LMAO! Sufi sang one of the songs along with the band. Pity that guy forgot some of the lyrics. Haha. The last song they performed was Paranoid; Black Sabbath cover. Fit, Sufi, Han and I were like dancing along to the song. But hell, it was damn fun!

Metalgunz performed but i don't really support that band. So, went out for a while. Then AOS performed. Last few minutes before TFK performed, we went in. The violinist was so pretty and tall, i admit. I think Age of Sinfonia's genre is similar to Therion. Oh well. Nice one indeed.

And then the bestest of the best, saving the best for the last(not last band to performed for that gig actually), THY FALLEN KINGDOM! That band was hella awesome, as always. The first song they performed is The Neverending War. All of us were like windmilling and some of them were moshing. Crazy audience TFK has ever had huh. LOL! Throughout their performance, all of us were moshing and headbanging continuously. No joke. That band was the Gods for that night. When all of us were moshing, most of the guys pushed me to the ground and someone's boot kicked on my left leg, causing a big lump and blue black as well. Same goes for my left waist. Now i realised that when i moshed, it turns out that the minor injuries came from my left side. Haha! Weird but true. ALL HAIL TFK. Tefeeek! Hehehheeh!

After they ended their performance, Fit and I changed to our new clothing and wanted to go to Zamzam restaurant but we were sooooo far from that location. We ended up at Sim Lim Square. Her dad fetched us home. Reached home at about 11pm.

& my dad was disappoined that i didn't ask inform him that i went yesterday. Luckily i was let off with a warning. :)

Pictures are on the way soon, hopefully. :)

Syarm Hetf.♥

Hatred is beauty, 11/15/2009 12:19:00 PM.

13.11.09

Fvck you asshole! But why? For lying to me about him. Fvck you!

What's your fvcking purpose telling me what he "said" to you about me?

I bet those words all came from your own filthy mouth. Are you trying to make feel like i'm in the air or something? Wtf is wrong with you? Are you actually a human being?

No. I fvcking don't think so. You're inhumane.

Your brain has officially turned 180 degrees and there are gaps in between your skull and your brain.

Seriously, what's your main PURPOSE, Mr Asshole?!

I believed what Fit told me.

He really do like me but there's no need for you to lie whereas he doesn't say anything about me!

And when the three of us were slacking at 56, and i was taking a short nap, you borrowed Fit's hp and told her that he already has a girl, a 17 year old, from Northland Sec.

SERIOUSLY, MISTER! I DON'T KNOW AND I DON'T THINK YOU ARE A HUMAN BEING!

And one more, does Salihan even say anything about me? If yes, PROVE IT!

Since when i had admired him?

And why the sudden for him to tell the matter about me to you? I bet all these are fake, UNTILL you have proven me wrong.

For now, your words are all lies.

Just like the testaments in the bible.

Once again, fvck off and die, son of a mother sloth. _ | _

Syarm Hetf.♥

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Hatred is beauty, 11/13/2009 10:34:00 AM.

10.11.09

I guess life's getting manageable and balanced. Sometimes times are good and sometimes, the other way round. I'm getting a job PRETTY soon, retaking of O level Malay is over. My life's a bit relaxed now; well, maybe when i'm starting to work, the difference of relaxation of my life will be completely different i suppose. But hell, this is life and you HAVE to accept the way it's already been.

I need to confess something here. I miss headbanging and moshing! Again, I'm deprived about gigs. Gigs are on 14th and 21st Nov. Holy shit! I can't confirm if i can attend on both gigs. I'm afraid that my job schedule clashes on both dates. Unlucky or what. -.-

Life's never been fair to us. I hate you, fate.

Syarm Hetf.♥

Hatred is beauty, 11/10/2009 09:51:00 PM.

9.11.09

Guess what? Retaking of O level Mother Tongue is in one days time and i didn't even touch a single note full of malay proverbs. I'm not ready and i think i'm gonna do badly. Perhaps, i may be getting below C6. Wow. I am an absolute fierce woman indeed. Haha. Oh well, fvck O. :P

Also, i'm rather glad that i'm getting a job at Pastamania. Am getting the uniform this Wednesday. Have to head down all the way to Commonwealth and get a typhoid jab. Bleargh. But i can't wait to work, really. Heheh.

Wanna know something, fellow readers? I'm sleepy.
Okay now fvck off and die cos i'm fvcking down with my "so-tak-perlu" post.
Bye.

Syarm Hetf.♥

Hatred is beauty, 11/09/2009 08:10:00 PM.

6.11.09

I applied a job at Tampines Mall's Pastamania. Hopefully i can get the job. I'm in a desperate need for a part time job. God help me please.

Oh yaaa. Life's a miserable, as always. It doesn't change one bit for me. Fvck it anyway. I totally don't give a damn. It's beyond too much.

Syarm Hetf.♥

Hatred is beauty, 11/06/2009 07:50:00 PM.

5.11.09

SOMEBODY SAVE ME PLEASE. I'M DROWNING IN PAIN AND ANGER AGAIN.

Sometimes, i think that i'm a jinx. Whatever unfortunate incidents that had happened and is happening in my house all revolves with me. But of all people, why me? What wrong have i done, such that misfortunate things happened. I can't take it anymore. I need freedom. I need peace in mind. I need to be in a place, where i can be all alone, taking the stress away from my cramped head. I need a punching bag. I need someone's shoulder to cry on when i can't manage things usefully.

HELP. HELP. HELP. HELP. HELP.

Hatred is beauty, 11/05/2009 07:54:00 PM.

4.11.09

You're my listening ear when i am feeling down, angry or any negative mood. You're so far away from me, yet you are so close to my heart. When are you coming back here? I really need you.

You're living a in good and luxurious life in Dubai, but can't you see that your lil' sis is suffering all the assumptions, naggings, blames given by the creatures within the four walls?

Patience was the need. But i already exploded it and i did it right in front of mum. Mum has never shut her holes up but i guess i did.

You weren't here for me. You're working and you have take lots of responsibilities. I understand. But don't you have the urge to call me, asking me how am i doing and how's life UNTILL just now, you finally chat with me on MSN. I let off a heavy relief. You do still care for me.

Now the question is; when am i gonna see you back here? I'm struggling hard here.

Hatred is beauty, 11/04/2009 10:27:00 PM.

FVCK YOU. FVCK YOU. FVCK YOU. FVCK YOU. FVCK YOU. FVCK YOU. FVCK YOU. FVCK YOU. FVCK YOU. FVCK YOU. FVCK YOU. FVCK YOU.

I FVCKING HATE WHATEVER THAT IS HAPPENING TO MY LIFE RECENTLY AND I'M GETTING TOO TIED UP. I FVCKING HATE THE SYSTEM IN MY HOME AND I AM SO BLOODY PISSED OFF WITH THOSE CREATURES IN MY HOUSE AND I HATE MY FORCED LIFESTYLE.

THIS IS GETTING TOO MUCH. I WILL MAKE IT EVEN WORSE. I AM BECOMING VIOLENT.

DON'T LET THE OLD ME RETURNED. IT'S UGLY FOR SURE.

THE VIOLENT SYARM HETF.

AND

I DON'T GIVE A FVCK IF YOU HATE ME.

DON'T YOU PEOPLE EVEN DARE TO CHEER ME UP COS NO MATTER IN WHAT WAY YOU GUYS WANT ME TO CHEER UP AND PUT A BLOODY SMILE ON MY FVCKING FACE, IT AIN'T GONNA WORK FVCKING ASSHOLES!

Hatred is beauty, 11/04/2009 08:49:00 PM.