29.7.09
I'm on mc for one week.
Well, there's advantages and disadvantages.
The advantages are, i can sleep all day long and do self study at home.
But on the other hand, I would miss my friends' lame craps and jokes and a lot of things behind.
And what's more saddening is that i HAVE to miss my English prelim.
Of all subjects, why must it be English?
Fvck you, i love English a lot!!
Syarm Hetf.♥
Well, there's advantages and disadvantages.
The advantages are, i can sleep all day long and do self study at home.
But on the other hand, I would miss my friends' lame craps and jokes and a lot of things behind.
And what's more saddening is that i HAVE to miss my English prelim.
Of all subjects, why must it be English?
Fvck you, i love English a lot!!
Syarm Hetf.♥
Hatred is beauty, 7/29/2009 09:49:00 PM.
28.7.09
Very good lor.
I'm running a very high fever.
Fvck it.
It's keeps going up and down.
Can't stand it.
Doctor, a new patient might come to you later!
I wanna get quarantined if my fever has gone further beyond normal.
Syarm Hetf.
I'm running a very high fever.
Fvck it.
It's keeps going up and down.
Can't stand it.
Doctor, a new patient might come to you later!
I wanna get quarantined if my fever has gone further beyond normal.
Syarm Hetf.
Hatred is beauty, 7/28/2009 08:39:00 PM.
27.7.09
Fvck my BLOG!
HOW AM I GONNA POST PICS HERE?!
CHEEEEEEEEBYE!
HOW AM I GONNA POST PICS HERE?!
CHEEEEEEEEBYE!
Hatred is beauty, 7/27/2009 09:23:00 PM.
24.7.09
What the hell is wrong with blogger?
Fvck it.
Okay at least you can see what am i about to post here.
Today's Frima'at.
YES! Weekends dudes and dudettes! :D
And there's a gig tomorrow at Crawlspace.
I'm going for it since someone wants to pay the tix for me.
Hehe! x)
Thanks yeah Pferd.
Am not going to reveal his real name. Hah!
So today after school, cabot for In Focus.
Met up with Adli and Anthony at Penin as they wanna buy new guitar for themselves.
So cool, Explo..rer. *the jealousy within*
After that went to a shopping mall at Marine Parade for guitar servicing.
About an hour later, accompanied Adli to Tiet studio for his band jamming.
Not even 5 minutes i was there, i went home. (and as i went home, i was bersemangat-ing for night study and something happen. -__-)
*aku ingatkan nak gi night study, abeh ni satu hamba Allah tak jadi turun Tamp. Siak ehhh. -_-*
Never mind, next week am gonna go for night study at a library or sky, who knows.
Btw, myself and Fit created these:
Monday is Monnin.
Tueday is Tueslasa.
Wednesday is Rabnesday. (LOL!)
Thursday is Khamhursday! (LOL LAGI!)
Friday is Frima'at (As seen above)
Saturday is Sabturrrday.
Sunday is Aunday.
So yeah, we combined both english and malay words together. I could not forget how we laughed so hard when we created those words as we were on our way home. LOL! xD
So long, tomorrow meeting my babes in hell!
Aku "berocus-pocus" teros aku hilang!
Syarm Hetf.
Fvck it.
Okay at least you can see what am i about to post here.
Today's Frima'at.
YES! Weekends dudes and dudettes! :D
And there's a gig tomorrow at Crawlspace.
I'm going for it since someone wants to pay the tix for me.
Hehe! x)
Thanks yeah Pferd.
Am not going to reveal his real name. Hah!
So today after school, cabot for In Focus.
Met up with Adli and Anthony at Penin as they wanna buy new guitar for themselves.
So cool, Explo..rer. *the jealousy within*
After that went to a shopping mall at Marine Parade for guitar servicing.
About an hour later, accompanied Adli to Tiet studio for his band jamming.
Not even 5 minutes i was there, i went home. (and as i went home, i was bersemangat-ing for night study and something happen. -__-)
*aku ingatkan nak gi night study, abeh ni satu hamba Allah tak jadi turun Tamp. Siak ehhh. -_-*
Never mind, next week am gonna go for night study at a library or sky, who knows.
Btw, myself and Fit created these:
Monday is Monnin.
Tueday is Tueslasa.
Wednesday is Rabnesday. (LOL!)
Thursday is Khamhursday! (LOL LAGI!)
Friday is Frima'at (As seen above)
Saturday is Sabturrrday.
Sunday is Aunday.
So yeah, we combined both english and malay words together. I could not forget how we laughed so hard when we created those words as we were on our way home. LOL! xD
So long, tomorrow meeting my babes in hell!
Aku "berocus-pocus" teros aku hilang!
Syarm Hetf.
Hatred is beauty, 7/24/2009 10:28:00 PM.
23.7.09
SORRY FOR NOT UPDATING!
I'M LAZY TO UPDATE SIOL!
AND YEAYYYYY MY BLOG ALREADY HAS RANDOM SONGS. :D
I'M LAZY TO UPDATE SIOL!
AND YEAYYYYY MY BLOG ALREADY HAS RANDOM SONGS. :D
Hatred is beauty, 7/23/2009 09:36:00 PM.
19.7.09
HOORAYYYYYYYY!
Finally, I've done doing my F&N coursework.
I don't care how shitty i've done the coursework as long as my teacher can have a look at it.
Songs on my bloggy already change.
And fvck, tomorrow school.
Godddddamn!
Syarmilla Hetf.♥
Finally, I've done doing my F&N coursework.
I don't care how shitty i've done the coursework as long as my teacher can have a look at it.
Songs on my bloggy already change.
And fvck, tomorrow school.
Godddddamn!
Syarmilla Hetf.♥
Hatred is beauty, 7/19/2009 09:38:00 PM.
17.7.09
I want my brown hair back! >.<Firstly, glad that today's Friday and that means weekends are hitting soon!
Just now i had my N level Eng oral.
It went way beyond okay.
I swear the read aloud passage, picture conversation and face-to-face conversation was so easy.
I spoke with confidence. :D
I felt contented and glad that there was no cockups happening in my mouth.
Heheh.
SO YEAH I HAPPY LAH!
After the oral, i stayed back till 4 plus to do my coursework - and now while i am blogging, i'm also doing my coursework at the same time. -_-
Oh come on! 6-7 pages only to complete and let Warda see my own coursework!
AKU BOLEH AKU BOLEH!
18 more days to PRELIM
&
17 more days to gooooooooo!
I know, some people know, public don't know! :D
So long, as I am currently blasting The Formation of Damnation by Testa-fvcking-ment!
ALL HAIL! \m/
Hatred is beauty, 7/17/2009 09:24:00 PM.
15.7.09
Took this a year ago. VERY OLD!WOOOOOOOOOOOO!
Wassssssssssssup readers!
I, Nurul Syarmilla, is damn fvcken bored!
So, i wanna post thiiiiiiiis!
First of all, I'm ALWAAAAAAAAAAAAAYS tired.
Almost every day i reached home from school at about 6pm.
Like after infocus, i have to STAY BACK AGAIN and do my F&N research which is so, in chinese they pronounce it MAFAN!
LECEH!
Nabey turban i can die sia!
AND I ONLY DID UP TO 14 or 15 PAGES!
AKU NAK MAKI SIA TU SEAB!
GILER UH KENA BUAT COURSEWORK UP TO 30 PAGES!
I swear my head's gonna be bald.
Ahh, like real. -.-
Okay, shuush about that.
Guess what?
My beloved brother, Met, downloaded whole lots of songs!
Woooohoo!
There's Meshuggah, Suicide Silence, Nightwish(old), Nile, Arch Enemy, Bloodbath, Austrian Death Machine, Blind Guardian, System of a Down, Cradle of Filth, Dimmu Borgir, Dissection(!!), Kittie, Lacuna Coil, Lamb of God, Midnight.
I swear it's damn lots when i found those songs on my WMP. :O
Abg boy, kalau computer kene virus, sumpah Syarm rogol abang uh!
Ahahaha siol jer aku.
But it's okay eh, janji happy sudah Met.
Whooooopsy!
& 19 more days to go people!
I know, some people know, public don't know!
Nyahahaha!
Also, 2 more days to my N level English oral.
Wish me good luck! :D
Syarm Hetf.♥
Wassssssssssssup readers!
I, Nurul Syarmilla, is damn fvcken bored!
So, i wanna post thiiiiiiiis!
First of all, I'm ALWAAAAAAAAAAAAAYS tired.
Almost every day i reached home from school at about 6pm.
Like after infocus, i have to STAY BACK AGAIN and do my F&N research which is so, in chinese they pronounce it MAFAN!
LECEH!
I have to do and redo and then add then check then if got error must redo.
If there's no link must clever2 go and find it on the internet.Nabey turban i can die sia!
AND I ONLY DID UP TO 14 or 15 PAGES!
AKU NAK MAKI SIA TU SEAB!
GILER UH KENA BUAT COURSEWORK UP TO 30 PAGES!
I swear my head's gonna be bald.
Ahh, like real. -.-
Okay, shuush about that.
Guess what?
My beloved brother, Met, downloaded whole lots of songs!
Woooohoo!
There's Meshuggah, Suicide Silence, Nightwish(old), Nile, Arch Enemy, Bloodbath, Austrian Death Machine, Blind Guardian, System of a Down, Cradle of Filth, Dimmu Borgir, Dissection(!!), Kittie, Lacuna Coil, Lamb of God, Midnight.
I swear it's damn lots when i found those songs on my WMP. :O
Abg boy, kalau computer kene virus, sumpah Syarm rogol abang uh!
Ahahaha siol jer aku.
But it's okay eh, janji happy sudah Met.
Whooooopsy!
& 19 more days to go people!
I know, some people know, public don't know!
Nyahahaha!
Also, 2 more days to my N level English oral.
Wish me good luck! :D
Syarm Hetf.♥
Hatred is beauty, 7/15/2009 09:49:00 PM.
13.7.09
Freaked out?
There's no need to cos it's just me and my middle finger.
I guess the expression on my face is totally perfect.
BECAUSE THIS IS ME BEING PISSED OFF!
Haha, get the picture already riiiight?
Okay, took this nabey tengteng pic at this morning; 2++ am.
I felt so restless and i can't sleep at all.
I was actually so pissed off, of i don't know what the fvck is the reason.
Not because of that dummy lah okay.
I'm so not into him ANYMORE.
Memories to dust.
Ash to ash.
Dust to dust.
Let it fade to black.
Let those memories burn to piles of ashes.
Please dude, look yourself into the mirror.
Let me give you a big DESPERADO chop on your bloody forehead.
Girls/Women are not like dolls, a toy you can keep and throw away just like that.
WE GIRLS DO HAVE FEELINGS AND DON'T YOU BASTARDS OUT THERE DARE TO PLAY YOUR GIRLFRIEND'S FEELINGS!
& girls, don't get melted by a "gentleman's" sweet, sugar-coated words.
A TRAP AND BETRAYAL WILL BEFALL ON YOU.
I fvck off and see you in hell now. Take care. _|_
Syarm Hetf.♥
There's no need to cos it's just me and my middle finger.
I guess the expression on my face is totally perfect.
BECAUSE THIS IS ME BEING PISSED OFF!
Haha, get the picture already riiiight?
Okay, took this nabey tengteng pic at this morning; 2++ am.
I felt so restless and i can't sleep at all.
I was actually so pissed off, of i don't know what the fvck is the reason.
Not because of that dummy lah okay.
I'm so not into him ANYMORE.
Memories to dust.
Ash to ash.
Dust to dust.
Let it fade to black.
Let those memories burn to piles of ashes.
Please dude, look yourself into the mirror.
Let me give you a big DESPERADO chop on your bloody forehead.
Girls/Women are not like dolls, a toy you can keep and throw away just like that.
WE GIRLS DO HAVE FEELINGS AND DON'T YOU BASTARDS OUT THERE DARE TO PLAY YOUR GIRLFRIEND'S FEELINGS!
& girls, don't get melted by a "gentleman's" sweet, sugar-coated words.
A TRAP AND BETRAYAL WILL BEFALL ON YOU.
I fvck off and see you in hell now. Take care. _|_
Syarm Hetf.♥
Hatred is beauty, 7/13/2009 08:51:00 PM.
12.7.09
Thanks for everything, rascal.
& you're nothing to me. Now it's all about me.
I'm better off without you.
You kept quiet all this while and you just don't have those family jewels to tell me the truth.
Why should it be me to make the first move?
Cos you don't wanna make me upset?
I'm not those type of girl that is easily heart broken and cry over a guy like you.
I don't wanna call you a jerk or a bastard.
I should call you a betrayer instead.
Good luck with your other bitch.
Stay happy yeah my friend.
So long.
I disappear.
& you're nothing to me. Now it's all about me.
I'm better off without you.
You kept quiet all this while and you just don't have those family jewels to tell me the truth.
Why should it be me to make the first move?
Cos you don't wanna make me upset?
I'm not those type of girl that is easily heart broken and cry over a guy like you.
I don't wanna call you a jerk or a bastard.
I should call you a betrayer instead.
Good luck with your other bitch.
Stay happy yeah my friend.
So long.
I disappear.
Syarm Hetf.♥
Hatred is beauty, 7/12/2009 09:06:00 PM.
11.7.09
Woooo!
Okay, random sia. Am bored. Totally totally damn freaking bored to the max and i feel like dying.
Ahahahah! Okay Syarm, stop your bloody crap lah!
Now I'm blasting Incarnation of Seth's demo; Tharnatos.
Check it out on their myspace.
Local Melodic Death/Black metal right there!
Ehheh. Drummer maot. AHAHHAHAHAHA!
Siak eh padahal punye padahal. xD
Ann's vox is so gruesome la i swear.
Way to go, Antelope! xD
I don't know what's up with me today.
I feel so tired yet energetic at the same time.
Don't ask me why.
& i missed my 3rd sister a lot.
And recently, her attitude change a lot.
As in a good way. Am really happy for her.
Though her life was kinda fvcked up.
Don't worry Nur Diana. I'm here for a listening ear and your support.
Cheer up. We always go through thick and thin.
This is life. Though yours are much different cos you already have 3 kids and that too, that scoundrel.
Damn. I wish i could kill that jerk.
He's treating himself as if he's right.
Yeah right in my black hole.
So let it be done.
Woohoo Michael Jackson's Black or White hitting on my Windows Media Player.
All hail the King of Pop!
:D
Let's groove to the tunes baybeh!
I vanish now.
Okay, random sia. Am bored. Totally totally damn freaking bored to the max and i feel like dying.
Ahahahah! Okay Syarm, stop your bloody crap lah!
Now I'm blasting Incarnation of Seth's demo; Tharnatos.
Check it out on their myspace.
Local Melodic Death/Black metal right there!
Ehheh. Drummer maot. AHAHHAHAHAHA!
Siak eh padahal punye padahal. xD
Ann's vox is so gruesome la i swear.
Way to go, Antelope! xD
I don't know what's up with me today.
I feel so tired yet energetic at the same time.
Don't ask me why.
& i missed my 3rd sister a lot.
And recently, her attitude change a lot.
As in a good way. Am really happy for her.
Though her life was kinda fvcked up.
Don't worry Nur Diana. I'm here for a listening ear and your support.
Cheer up. We always go through thick and thin.
This is life. Though yours are much different cos you already have 3 kids and that too, that scoundrel.
Damn. I wish i could kill that jerk.
He's treating himself as if he's right.
Yeah right in my black hole.
So let it be done.
Woohoo Michael Jackson's Black or White hitting on my Windows Media Player.
All hail the King of Pop!
:D
Let's groove to the tunes baybeh!
I vanish now.
Syarmilla Hetfield.♥
Hatred is beauty, 7/11/2009 10:10:00 PM.
10.7.09
Today's O level MT oral is based on helping out the community.
I swear my voice was automatically muted the moment those two invigilators started to ask me questions with so the bahasa baku.
I'm kinda worried for my results.
Hopfully i can get A2!
I AM REALLY HOPING FOR IT! >.<
I don't know what to say now. And what's up with him ey.
Haha stupid knns.
I withdraw myself from attending gigs at the moment.
Prelims is in less than one months time.
And 'N' level is in less than two months.
Preparing myself to suffer a lot.
Preparing myself to get stressed.
Preparing myself to do tons of revisions.
All in focus.
No time for fun and no time for me to slack.
& I spent only 2 hours on the computer.
Will not lead my life free as a bird.
Let's suffer in silence.
I swear my voice was automatically muted the moment those two invigilators started to ask me questions with so the bahasa baku.
I'm kinda worried for my results.
Hopfully i can get A2!
I AM REALLY HOPING FOR IT! >.<
I don't know what to say now. And what's up with him ey.
Haha stupid knns.
I withdraw myself from attending gigs at the moment.
Prelims is in less than one months time.
And 'N' level is in less than two months.
Preparing myself to suffer a lot.
Preparing myself to get stressed.
Preparing myself to do tons of revisions.
All in focus.
No time for fun and no time for me to slack.
& I spent only 2 hours on the computer.
Will not lead my life free as a bird.
Let's suffer in silence.
Syarmilla Hetfield.♥
Hatred is beauty, 7/10/2009 10:05:00 PM.
7.7.09
In a few hours time, MJ's gonna get buried.
And i would cry deep inside my heart.
I've never share this to anyone till today.
When i was young, i used to love MJ a lot.
LIKE REALLY A LOT.
I admired his dance style, the moonwalk & i swear upon God, i always wanted to dance like him back when i was about 5 years old.
I secretly danced behind my living room curtains, as i'm afraid my parents would laugh and make fun of me.
I failed.
But i did had fun dancing behind those curtains.
You readers may think it's funny.
Well, it is, but his songs and his dance grooves me till up to date.
Let all the bad rumors came upon him, but to me, he was and still be the King of Pop.
No other celebrities will take over him.
I'm proud of his career as he started at a very young age.
I've always love the song ABC originally covered by the Jackson 5.
It's so simple yet pleasant to my ears.
When i first saw him perform on the TV, my first ever song by him is Give In To Me featuring Slash; ex Guns N Roses and currently Velvet Revolver's lead guitarist.
That was the moment i was so into him.
He truly deserves to cement his singing career as the King of Pop.
Michael Jackson; an inspiration, an icon. Gone, but never will his music be forgotten.
Rest In Peace Michael Joseph Jackson.
May God bless your soul.
& may those naysayers out there rot in hell.
Amen.
And i would cry deep inside my heart.
I've never share this to anyone till today.
When i was young, i used to love MJ a lot.
LIKE REALLY A LOT.
I admired his dance style, the moonwalk & i swear upon God, i always wanted to dance like him back when i was about 5 years old.
I secretly danced behind my living room curtains, as i'm afraid my parents would laugh and make fun of me.
I failed.
But i did had fun dancing behind those curtains.
You readers may think it's funny.
Well, it is, but his songs and his dance grooves me till up to date.
Let all the bad rumors came upon him, but to me, he was and still be the King of Pop.
No other celebrities will take over him.
I'm proud of his career as he started at a very young age.
I've always love the song ABC originally covered by the Jackson 5.
It's so simple yet pleasant to my ears.
When i first saw him perform on the TV, my first ever song by him is Give In To Me featuring Slash; ex Guns N Roses and currently Velvet Revolver's lead guitarist.
That was the moment i was so into him.
He truly deserves to cement his singing career as the King of Pop.
Michael Jackson; an inspiration, an icon. Gone, but never will his music be forgotten.
Rest In Peace Michael Joseph Jackson.
May God bless your soul.
& may those naysayers out there rot in hell.
Amen.
Syarmilla Hetfield.
Hatred is beauty, 7/07/2009 09:42:00 PM.
6.7.09
WHY WHY WHY?!
WHY ISN'T FATE BEING NICE TO ME?!
SERIOUSLY, WHYY?!
WHAT'S WRONG WITH THESE PEOPLE IN THIS FILTHY UNIVERSE?!
YOU'RE TESTING MY FVCKING PATIENCE AND MAKE ME UNFOCUSED IN MY LIFE?!
DIDN'T YOU HAD ENOUGH TORTURING OTHER'S LIFE?!
AND YOU! WHY DID YOU KEPT QUIET THESE FEW DAYS?!
WHY?!
YES YOU YOU YOU YOU!
I'VE BEEN TRYING TO GET YOU BUT YOU IGNORED!
IS THERE SOMETHING GOING WRONG?!
FVCK KNOWS HOW PISSED OFF AM I RIGHT NOW!
SOMEBODY PLEASE KILL ME AND PROUDLY BOAST THOSE WORDS
"HAIL MURDER!"
BRUTAL DEATH MODE I AM RIGHT NOW!
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
WHY ISN'T FATE BEING NICE TO ME?!
SERIOUSLY, WHYY?!
WHAT'S WRONG WITH THESE PEOPLE IN THIS FILTHY UNIVERSE?!
YOU'RE TESTING MY FVCKING PATIENCE AND MAKE ME UNFOCUSED IN MY LIFE?!
DIDN'T YOU HAD ENOUGH TORTURING OTHER'S LIFE?!
AND YOU! WHY DID YOU KEPT QUIET THESE FEW DAYS?!
WHY?!
YES YOU YOU YOU YOU!
I'VE BEEN TRYING TO GET YOU BUT YOU IGNORED!
IS THERE SOMETHING GOING WRONG?!
FVCK KNOWS HOW PISSED OFF AM I RIGHT NOW!
SOMEBODY PLEASE KILL ME AND PROUDLY BOAST THOSE WORDS
"HAIL MURDER!"
BRUTAL DEATH MODE I AM RIGHT NOW!
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
Hatred is beauty, 7/06/2009 06:48:00 PM.
1.7.09
I am seriously sorry to the core for not updating my blog.
I was so busyyyy with school and home to the extent that i leave my internet world at one side.
Well, this might be outdated but last Saturday's gig was effing awesome. I loved it so much.
All the bands were great, except for Heidon and Cardiac Necropsy.
I missed Heidon la that's why.
But I was totally not looking forward to see Cardiac perform cos i'm not into Pornogrind.
(Well, i do listen but not really into that genre. Goregrind is better yaw)
And yea! Saitan, Melancholy's Downfall, Stillborn, Sanity Obscure, Beledec, Absence of the Sacred, Zaganoth was awesome!
Oh btw, Beledec, thanks for the performance.
Cos of Haikel, he moshed and pushed me to the front such that i have bruises on my left body.
And when Saitan's performance, i missed the bodysurf!
Fvck sia.
Left butt landed on the ground and the incoming was so superb that till today i could still feel the pain.
In total, i have like, 10 bruises on my body.
Sedaaaaaap siaaak.
Haiyoyoyoyo.
But hey, Doomsday II was truly awesome as hell.
And after the gig, me and love went to Boat Quay and spent our time there.
Went off at 10.30.
Last Saturday was an awesome day.
Bruises, love, mosh, friends.
How sweet.
Love it.
:)
I was so busyyyy with school and home to the extent that i leave my internet world at one side.
Well, this might be outdated but last Saturday's gig was effing awesome. I loved it so much.
All the bands were great, except for Heidon and Cardiac Necropsy.
I missed Heidon la that's why.
But I was totally not looking forward to see Cardiac perform cos i'm not into Pornogrind.
(Well, i do listen but not really into that genre. Goregrind is better yaw)
And yea! Saitan, Melancholy's Downfall, Stillborn, Sanity Obscure, Beledec, Absence of the Sacred, Zaganoth was awesome!
Oh btw, Beledec, thanks for the performance.
Cos of Haikel, he moshed and pushed me to the front such that i have bruises on my left body.
And when Saitan's performance, i missed the bodysurf!
Fvck sia.
Left butt landed on the ground and the incoming was so superb that till today i could still feel the pain.
In total, i have like, 10 bruises on my body.
Sedaaaaaap siaaak.
Haiyoyoyoyo.
But hey, Doomsday II was truly awesome as hell.
And after the gig, me and love went to Boat Quay and spent our time there.
Went off at 10.30.
Last Saturday was an awesome day.
Bruises, love, mosh, friends.
How sweet.
Love it.
:)
(Am not gonna upload ALL the fvcking pics here. Cos there's like 70+ pics. Wanna see those pics, just go view Tina's bloggy or any metalheads blog. )
Syarmilla Hetfield.♥
Hatred is beauty, 7/01/2009 09:02:00 PM.
