31.10.09
Life's getting bleak. It really sucks. I hate it when this happen. But why now? I sound so depress. To the one with higher power, please let me live life fully. What kind of shit am i living in right now? Every single day, it's the same old routine and i'm getting sick of it. Getting a job is like i'm waiting 1000 goddamn years for me to enter heaven. Calling this country as a fine country is totally bullshit.
I'm always broke. I really need a job so that i can have my own pocket money. Mum keeps on nagging at me to find a part-time job. Dad doesn't even care about me that much. But i'm glad they're not really that strict towards me nowadays, ever since my N's are over. Mum wants me to be independent. Yes, of course i wanna learn to be independent but from where am i going to start?
There's no border line. It's tough.
I'm having Bridging Programme in school starting this Monday. Can't wait. Seriously, i do miss school. Call me an asshole, i don't give a flying fvck. I wanna make it to sec 5, BADLY and i'm yearning to get good results. But base on what answers i wrote in all the papers makes me a person with a very low self-esteem. I screwed most part of it, but i'm hoping that God will help me. I did help myself in order to sustain good results. Good is good enough. Excellent is better. My early revolution is to suffer a lot, enjoy less in 2010, if i were to make it to sec 5.
Oh God, please make me a better person for i have gravely sinned in this pathetic world.
I want to have a good and simple life.
No stress, no depression, no anger in me, just a good life.
& that's all i could ask for. :'(
Syarm Hetf.♥
I'm always broke. I really need a job so that i can have my own pocket money. Mum keeps on nagging at me to find a part-time job. Dad doesn't even care about me that much. But i'm glad they're not really that strict towards me nowadays, ever since my N's are over. Mum wants me to be independent. Yes, of course i wanna learn to be independent but from where am i going to start?
There's no border line. It's tough.
I'm having Bridging Programme in school starting this Monday. Can't wait. Seriously, i do miss school. Call me an asshole, i don't give a flying fvck. I wanna make it to sec 5, BADLY and i'm yearning to get good results. But base on what answers i wrote in all the papers makes me a person with a very low self-esteem. I screwed most part of it, but i'm hoping that God will help me. I did help myself in order to sustain good results. Good is good enough. Excellent is better. My early revolution is to suffer a lot, enjoy less in 2010, if i were to make it to sec 5.
Oh God, please make me a better person for i have gravely sinned in this pathetic world.
I want to have a good and simple life.
No stress, no depression, no anger in me, just a good life.
& that's all i could ask for. :'(
Syarm Hetf.♥
Hatred is beauty, 10/31/2009 05:31:00 PM.
30.10.09
Babble babble bitch bitch
Rebel rebel party party
Sex sex sex and don't forget the "violence"
Blah blah blah got your lovey-dovey sad-and-lonely
Rebel rebel party party
Sex sex sex and don't forget the "violence"
Blah blah blah got your lovey-dovey sad-and-lonely
Stick your STUPID SLOGAN in:
Everybody sing along.
Everybody sing along.
Thanks Randhir, thanks Raj for saying i'm manly enough and i got the balls. I'm proud of it.
I'm sleepy and i can't wait for SmackDown! Can't wait to see my most most most favorite wrestler in action. Voooooooooot!
Currently, my mood's a bit down. Don't ask me why.
Gotta listen to M-16 to make feel happy and feel manly once again.
I'VE GOT BALLS SUCKAS!
Syarm Hetf.♥
Hatred is beauty, 10/30/2009 09:21:00 PM.
29.10.09
GUESS WHAT?! SHARIFAH ALFIEYAH IS SODOMIFIED BY ME!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! THIS IS GETTING AWESOME PEEPOS! =D
Hatred is beauty, 10/29/2009 09:57:00 PM.
Let me tell you this. I love Sodom and it is none of your business. I love them so much that i listen to their songs almost all the time of the day. You hate Teutonic Thrash Metal, that's your seluar dalam cos i don't give a flying fvck about your opinion(s). You hate them or any other thrash metal bands because you can't accept that the genre is fvcking heavy and possibly one of the best metal genres of all time.
Oh Tom, oh Bernd and oh Bobby, I float when i listen to your songs.
Please make your asses down to Singapore. I'm dying to see you guys perform live.
- M16.
SODOM UP YOUR ASS! \m/
AKU SUKA SODOM SUARSSSSS!
Syarm Hetf.♥
Hatred is beauty, 10/29/2009 07:16:00 PM.
28.10.09
LOOK AT THE PICTURE ABOVE! HE'S MINE AND FVCK YOU ALL!
My personal favorite wrestler owns YOUR favorite wrestler.
Haha! Sorry for the random post. I'm just deprived on getting WWE's Braggin' Rights VCD/DVD.
Fvck Batista. Fvck Rey. Fvck MVP. Fvck Kane. Fvck all the wrestlers.
ALL HAIL THE DEADMAN. *hails*
Syarm Hetf.♥
Hatred is beauty, 10/28/2009 11:57:00 AM.
26.10.09
HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEY PEEPOS! ;D
Yesterday gig's was awesome when Truth Be Known, Flawed Element and Thambi K Seaow performed at Mosh Party 3.
Fvck the rest of the bands.
Oh, too bad i didn't get to watch Wormrot cos i have to be home early.
There were only few metalheads and the rest are "hardcore" kids.
Pathetic hardcore dance. Just stare at them with my fiery eyes. Chey!
When Truth Be Known performed, there were only few supporters siak. Bloody hell!
The rest went outside and only metalheads and few hardcore kids were inside.
And it's even much more pathetic that i am the only female who headbanged and moshed.
Tsktsktsk. Where did the love for the music scene go to man?
I windmilled beside Jaarvis and he said, "very windy". Thanks eh bro. -.-
Oh ya, for those who still don't know about this, Jaarvis cut his hair!
Well, it's not that bad but long hair can windmill and produce nice wind! Hahaha!
Flawed Element wasn't that bad either. Very rockish/metalish. Keyboardist mata sepet siak. Muahahahahahaha!
But overall, this band rocked. (Y)
THAMBI K SEAOW WAS THE SEX! Shyam, Burp, Ahmad and the drummer(forgotten his name uh), wore football jerseys. Ahmad wore a white jersey, doesn't even look like a Man U or Liverpool okayy. They also wore pelikat sarong. Shyam wore Man U, Burp wore Liverpool, so did the drummer.
I swear they were hucking filarious. A'ah! Tak bedek!
Haha, pathetic mosh started when they played Satan's Song that lasted how many seconds i don't know, with Satish on vocals. Pretty cool.
And after performing their 2nd or 3rd song, they wanna play football. SEMPAT SIOL.
Shyam asked the supporters,"Who's got the balls.....or the tits to come out in front and become the match commentator?"
Woah cheebye! I was damn paiseh when he said like that. And the supporters all eyed on me and laughed. LOL siaaaa!
But Shyam asked them to applaud for me since i'm the only female supporter for TKS.
*kembang dalam hati siaaa. hehehehehehe*
Okay! Shyam asked all of us to split into two. Jaarvis was appointed as a goalkeeper.
And they need a match commentator. Tak pasal2, that drummer pointed at me and Shyam kept calling out my name to stand out. I refused BUT there's this one bastard who pushed me and stand out. Woah siaaak. I wonder who's the guy that pushed me.
So yeah, i was the match commentator and i have to shout "GOAL!" or just blabber shit lor.
Fvcking paiseh siaaa.
But TKS was really great. And i laughed my ass off all the way cos their lyrics of the songs are way tooooooo funny.
Oh well, guess i am done. Will update with a new post when i'm free.
OH WAIT! LIVERPOOL WON OKAY! 2-0!!
DOWN WITH GAY U! YOU'LL NEVER WALK ALONE!!!!!!!!!!
Syarm Hetf.♥
Hatred is beauty, 10/26/2009 07:13:00 PM.
24.10.09
That guy behind me is a dummy! ^ ^
Lmao! Just kidding.
The pic above was taken last year and look, i was chubby.
Alright. I'm kinda excited, nervous and a bit irritated at the same time.
I'm excited because i'm going for tomorrow's gig!
I'm nervous because i'm too excited.
& i feel irritated cos many of 'em keep asking me about the gig's info. -.-
Well, the purpose of posting the pic above is because of one reasonable reason.(got such meaning?)
I miss school.
& i miss every little hilarious thing that happened in 4N3.
I miss my own peepos.
FVCK LA ASAL AKU EMO SANGAT NIIII?!
I can't wait to headbang, fvckers!
Wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!
Oh ya, kan aku dah cakap, cina tu tak call. Babi siak!
Syarm Hetf.♥
Hatred is beauty, 10/24/2009 09:23:00 PM.
23.10.09
Rotting at home is like you're burning inside the 7th level. Stayed at home for 2 days straight. Can't i get any fun activities? Why must it always be b to the o to the r to the e to the d to the o to the m that enters my mind almost all the time. Can't stand being cashless. Can't stand being nagged. Can't stand every single tiny weeny negative things that came all around me. I need it all washed away. But how?
And that person have yet to call me whether i am getting the job or not.
Excuse fvcking me! Kalau aku tak dapat Admission pon, kan ada job positions yang lain apa. Dah dua hari aku tunggu kau nya call, tapi takda dalam aku nyer receive call list. Aku binget uh siak!
Kalau besok kau tak call aku, maknanya kau tipu sia.
Pasal kau cakap ngan aku, "whatever it is, i'll call you in two or three days time."
Takkan korang sebok sangat kan ngan kerja korang. Aper? Free time tak tau nak call per sia.
Babi nyer cina. Gi makan taik aku lagi baik uh eh. _|_
Btw, I miss NPCC very much. I miss the memories, especially in Bintan! Gahhhh.
Hopefully, those mofos jolly well organise that bloody annual camp almost perfectly or else i will say that Tango is 1000 times way better than you frigging useless crap bunch of calling yourselves bloody NCOs, aka Unity.
Cos i'm coming back to see how you peepos progress like.
Syarm Hetf.♥
Hatred is beauty, 10/23/2009 09:15:00 PM.
22.10.09
Hey yoooooooooooooo! ;D
Firstly, i'm sorry for not updating my blog yesterday and the day before. I was tired and my comp went a lil' nuts. It keeps logging off automatically.
Alright, let's move on. So yesterday, went to Escape Theme Park with Fie, and we applied job as Admission. Hopefully, both of us will get the job. Gahh, i really need the job badly. *crosses fingers*
After that, I accompanied Fie to Pasir Ris MRT as she wanted to meet her boyfriend. After she went off, i went back to the bus inter and waited for Mech. Fit called me that her dad is driving her to Costa Sands Resort. When Mech arrived, both of us met Fit outside OCK's taxi stand. Her dad brought us to the location by car. And there's this line between Fit and her dad. It's pretty hilarious.
Fit's dad: Mana block G?
Fit: Sebelah block F. (answered sarcastically)
Fit's dad: Ohhhh.
Me and Mech laughed our asses off. Boleh layan sak bapak dekni. Tsk!
When we reached the place, Apiz, Ayam, Badariah, Choonye, Ray, Enot and more was there.
Even some of my friends were there too. Syakiran, Arep and Hairi.
Ate, camwhored, and blablabla.
Overall, we did have some fun. Went off from the place at 8:30pm with Fie and An GorReng.
By the time we went out of the place, saw Jacq, Iliyas and Shareen.(forgotten that guy's name, bahh!)
Bumped with many Tampinesians there. Fie bumped with her coach and blablabla.
Waited for the bus and i reached home by 9.30. (Y)
Picxies!
2nd post might be up later. Depends on my mood. And i hate insomnia! _|_
Syarm Hetf.♥
Hatred is beauty, 10/22/2009 06:17:00 PM.
19.10.09
Kinda bored. I don't know what to do really. Just got home. Went to TM Mac and slacked with Mech, Tina and Zul. Tina and Zul ate while me and Mech played Tina's laptop. Heh. After that, we headed down to 945. Fit, Fie and Afiq was there. Not long after that, Fie and Afiq had to go off. Ten minutes later, Fit went off, followed by Mech. It was only me, Tina and Zul.
Blasted a few black metal songs from Tina's laptop. We camwhored, using the webcam.
The pics are all funny and ugly. But hey, looks are nothing, but it may be deceiving.
Gedebak gedebuk, all of us separated our ways to home sweet home.
Reached home by 8. On the dot.
Can't stand rotting the whole day by letting my ass landed on my rocking chair and play the computer for 24 hours. What an unhealthy sight.
And i'm still in desperate to find a part time job. Fvck!
I just need to let my wallet to be full, and not letting its stomach empty.
& I AM SO DEPRIVED ABOUT GIGS! 21st Nov, CAN YOU PLEASE FLY FAST. SOMEBODY IS REALLY DESPERATE TO HEADBANG AND MOSH. Gah! Wa buay tahan la siaa!
Ohohoh! Actually i got this info a few weeks back but sometimes i tend to remember and forget it just like that.
This coming 25th October, there'll be a gig at *scape, Mosh Party III!
I've been to both Mosh Party I and II. Quite awefvcksome. But i just hope this coming gig will be a better one cos Mosh Party II was a bit shitty, whereas Mosh Party I was hella awesome. Oshiego performed during that gig, so was my brother's band, Dextromethorphan, last time it was known as Deko Tora.
Here's the flyer.
I'm still not sure whether i am going. But i wanna go, but just support a few bands.
Cos there surely be one, two, three or four hardcore taik bands playing on that day.
& i can't stand hardcore fashion. So whatever. Gahhh.
Other than that,
Au Revoir.
Syarm Hetf.♥
Hatred is beauty, 10/19/2009 08:16:00 PM.
17.10.09
I don't know what the hell is wrong with me today. My moodswings are on the loose. I've already thrown my tantrums and anger to my mum. Just because i was hungry. I find it totally ridiculous sia. And i felt guilty cos i've scolded my mum and now she don't really speak up to me. Regret for throwing such an ugly tantrum to an elderly that has been taking care of me ever since in her womb, carrying me everywhere for 7 months! *smacks forehead and smacks computer table*
I got moodswings when i'm having menses. And fvck yes i am having it right now. I hate menses.
It's troublesome. You gotta change it at least twice or thrice a day.
If it's overflowing, there's a spot on the pants and you have to change, both panties and short/pants.
Some more when having menses, cramps starts to merge. The pain is deeply hell. That's where girls start to have moodswings, well for me at least. TOTALLY HATE THIS FEELING.
And guys! You're lucky that you don't have any menses, no need to pregnant. And i guess you Adams have no moodswings, or in other words PRE MENSTRUAL SYNDROME. & yet, most of the guys are like girls having their menses. Mengamok sana, mengamok sini. Complain also like girl. I don't think there's a need for you guys to complain right? Unless you're trying to say that your brother's tiny hole has blood and it's been flowing for 7 days straight. O.o
Okay, that sounds so gay and wrong man.
Nevertheless, we are all human beings and we do have feelings. But guys throwing tantrums is utterly gay.
It's better for you guys to take a tweezer and pull your below off and there you are, a girl now.
Fvck it, you see! My moodswings has changed from one different mood to another. And now i'm talking random.
I seriously don't know what is wrong me with me. Somebody knock me in the tummy and head please. Cos i'm hungry and hungry people's brain cannot function properly.
Just like this person who is blogging nonsense here, and that's SYARM!
Syarm Hetf.♥
Hatred is beauty, 10/17/2009 05:33:00 PM.
15.10.09
Yooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!
Today's post is gonna be the same like the previous post.
As usual, woke up at 11. Went out from the house by 1.45pm.
And sorry Fie i was late, but i still did buy for you Pink Dolphin riiiight? :)
Train-ed down to Bedok and met Fit and Apiiz at Bedok Inter. Took 168 to Woodlands. Mech aboard the bus from Tamp Library bus stop.
Supposed to take 911 by the time we reached Woodlands. And we got to know that we took the wrong 911 bus. Took that 911 and went to inter but we did not alight. That same bus goes to Djinn's place. And we slacked at his void deck till 5.30 pm as Mech doesn't wanna go home late. I swear we were laughing our assets off. Totally hilarious. We were at the bus stop and waiting for the bus to come. Djinn was looking at us from far, at his door step there. We camwhored. And when the bus has arrived, Fit and I shouted the goodbye song across to Djinn. Fvcking hilarious man.
And we took 168 at inter. As we reached tamp, Mech is the first person to alight, followed by Apiiz, Fie and I, and last person to alight is Fit. Fie and me went to bk and eat. And something unwanted happened, which i DO NOT want to elaborate here cos it's too fvcking personal.
That's how i rot my day.
I guess that's about it.
And to Fie; please cheer up aite? Don't be too sad. Sometimes he didn't mean to hurt you with harsh words. This is LIFE baby. :)
Syarm Hetf.♥
Hatred is beauty, 10/15/2009 11:23:00 PM.
14.10.09
As usual, woke up at 11am. Got a call from Tina if i'm coming down to Pasir Ris which in the end i did. Get out from the house by 1pm. Bus-ed down to Pasir Ris inter and take another bus. Bodoh nyer aku! Sonia fetched me from the bus stop and we went to 741. Tina, Zul, Andrew, Raj, Reindeer(lol!), Aisyah and another girl was there. Sorry babe, totally forgot your name already. :P
When i first arrived, Andrew suddenly asked me if i have ciggies, and all of their faces like so depress like that. We got coins, I mataoed only $1. HAHA! Fit cab-ed down to Pasir Ris. She was at the playground. Myself, Sonia, Andrew, Raj and Reindeer ran towards her. It was so damn funny lor. Just for the sake of Winner! Haha! Went to that plaza and they mataoed just to buy mee hoon. Seriously, all of us were damn broke siaa. Head back to 741. After that, Han came. Later, Mech came. Hah, I fetched him a few metres away from the bus stop and i asked him to carry me by the back. And he carried me and he almost fall. So do I la ehh.
We made a lot of noise and blablabla. Lepak-ed there and about 6 we went off. At tamp, lepak-ed with Djinn and Rae. Reached home by 8.
Let the pictures to the talking.
Gay couple spotted. Hahaha! xD
That's all about today. I know it's boring but at least i didn't leave my blog dead okay.
Before i end the post;
Happy 16th Birthday to Muhammad Iliyas Bin Rashid!
Finally ko dah 16 tahun. Boleh tengok NC 16.
Well, this guy is somehow funny and also retarded. Lol!
Whenever we eye contact, we tend to point middle finger to each other, and it's no reason at all.
We are totally random. Btw friend, enjoy your day.
May God bless you, and good luck for the N's results. :)
Syarm Hetf.♥
Hatred is beauty, 10/14/2009 09:07:00 PM.
