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2010-07-21T22:11:00.000+08:00

DEAD DEAD DEAD DEAD DEAD DEAD DEAD DEAD DEAD DEAD DEAD DEAD DEAD....

AT THE MOMENT.

find me on tumblr. BYE!

2010-07-18T13:54:00.000+08:00

too many shits came. shitty people entered my life and made me felt miserable. i've got many commitments to handle with my two bare hands. do you people know how does it feels to be so fucking stress and frustrated? so little time, yet many things to be done. saddest part of this dramatic life of mine is that i've lost my respect and trust to those motherfucking hypocrites. fuck you, you know who you are. i swear i wanna see 3 of you lead a horrible/horrific/terrible/unlucky/jinxed life. i'm sure i'll grin widely. pathetic losers.

2010-07-04T21:35:00.000+08:00

Hello. I'm drop dead gorgeous. NOT!

Fuck my dead blog, really. And stop staring at it too long or else you'll get swollen eyes. Haha!

Chao.

2010-06-14T13:56:00.000+08:00

Seriously, my face in that picture is so not needed! But hey, it's bodysurfing. And look at Dalif's head near to my... hmm you know it. HAHAHAHAHA!

Okay, monday blues. Fuck it. I don't have any plans for today. Shit right? Gah! No plans other than lepaking with Fit later. MENDAK ke per!

I don't know what to blog, really. My mind got blocked. GOBLOK. HAAAAA. Kay, wtf. -__-

I miss headbanging and moshing and bodysurfing and also being so crazy and hyper at gigs. (Count how many "and" are there. HAHA!)

I am so going for NOW SUFFER on the 27th. It has been a long time since i saw Oshiego performed on stage. Haiyaaa.

K i got nothing to say. BYE!

2010-06-05T23:17:00.000+08:00

Mosh Party 5 was indeed an awesome, with Stillborn performed for the gig. :D

Even though i only went there just to support one band, but hell, it was fucking awesome. Just for one band that i headbanged, moshed and bodysurfed, i was already drown in my own sweat. NO JOKE.

Stillborn made my day.

And i must say many many thanks to my sugar daddy, Arvind for giving me free entry. Sayang kau banyak2, kepala botak! :D

I will upload pictures here, soon, once i've received it. :)

And not forgetting,

I GOT ERECTION!

:D :D :D

Death Fest and Mosh Party 5 over, am just waiting for NOW SUFFERRRR!

I would like to see my heads flung off though. :P

Oh shit, i'm just kidding! >.<

2010-06-01T21:25:00.000+08:00

Good evening readers.

Today is Fuck My Life day.

I've got scolded by my dad in the morning.

It spoiled my mood for the entire day.

I can't help it when he blames and accused me things that i didn't do at all.

The person that i thought i can depend on, makes my mood really down.

I cried. Witness was Fit. I told her every single thing that she doesn't know what's happening to me when i am at home.

I am currently in a depression.

What makes me more depress is that i've lost weight drastically, yet i have an enormous appetite.

I may have some health problem that i have yet to know.

Thanks to my stubbornness, i have yet to see the doctor.

Gosh, i feel like a jinx really.

It's like i am a troublemaker of peace.

Destroyer of happiness that is around me.

I think if i didn't exist, the world would be a better place to live in.

Oh well. Fuck my jinxed life.

2010-05-30T13:53:00.000+08:00

Singapore Death Fest was AWE-FUCK-SOME.

After three months of not going to gigs, i finally made myself free yesterday to let my inner rage in me to behave like a beast.

Most of the bands that i anticipated was as brutal as fuck, gory as fuck and of course, sexy as fuck.

Finally i get to headbang and windmill A LOT, bodysurf and mosh! It felt so good.

Took a lot of random photos outside Blackhole.

I'm just too lazy to elaborate la. Haha.

But overall, the bands that played yesterday was fucking brutal. But the crowds wasn't supportive much.

Right now, right side of my head has a lump, thanks to Flesh Disgorged's guitarist's guitar's knob that hit on my head while i was windmilling.

I'm having neck cramps, as usual.

& yes yes! I've got Cardiac Necropsy's last piece, limited edition free t-shirt!

Hahaha! At first Tina was the one that has it as the vocalist threw that shirt to her.

But after the performance, the t-shirt was at Elly's bag. But since none of them took it, apa lagi, aku amek lah! HAHAHAHA!

I was being a bitch, for a day ONLY! :P

Okay, i'm just waiting for Mosh Party 5 and Now Suffer!

Fuck yeah let's bang again! :DDDD

2010-05-28T22:13:00.001+08:00

My end, it justifies my needs.

All i ever do is delay.

My every attempt to invade.

The end of the road.

I just wish that the world is in my two very own hands,

punishing every mankind who crossed over the line,

torturing, giving slavery and vengeance.

Why am i being like this most of the time? I don't like being infuriated,

but some fucked up dogs made me being in this way.

Making me hammer smashing face to you motherfucking creatures.

Fuck it. I wish i wasn't born. I don't wish to feel pain in the heart.

Life's a bitch, a never ending wheel, a cycle that repeats.

I just wish God never invented the feeling, angry/hatred/pain.

By the way, i wanna have my own freedom of speech to the worldwide web.

Bitch, i may know you for only 8 months. You were good to me in the beginning. You were good to your ex-best friend whom you have known for 14 goddamn years.

You've let your thoughts deceived you. You've let Satan do the talking instead of Gabriel doing the talk. You've made a move where it leads to one huge pile of mistakes. You've made every one of us who we considered you to be our close friend walked out from you.

I used to trust you, let you to be my listening ear whenever i had problems.

But because of your mouth, the trust I'd build just for you have been destroyed.

Just like the saying, "Kerana mulut, badan binasa."

Ever since you had make yourself an extreme makeover, your attitude towards us changed as well.

Like seriously, what wrong have we ever did to you?

This has been going for almost 3 months. We thought you deserved a second chance.

But no, i took back my words. You fucking don't deserve it.

I am still not satisfied with you. Yes, you read it. NOT SATISFIED.

But oh well, you did mentioned that you wish you were never part of our friendship.

Don't you think we didn't wish the same thing as well.

I'm glad that i fed my pride and ego, to taunt you down.

I wish the better of you and your future endeavors.

I'll make sure you'll live your life with remorse. I can bet, you will never get friends like us, whom we trusted you, hated you, but missed the old you.

We all know, you are not the same anymore.

And no, i ain't doing this for the sake of sympathy.

I am doing this, for the sake of recalling the deeds you've done.

SNAP. AND. WAKE. THE. FUCK. UP. TO. YOUR. MISTAKES. MOTHERFUCKER.

2010-05-27T21:13:00.001+08:00

FUCK YOU LA MENSTRUAL WHY MUST YOU COME SO FAST?!

KAN PERANGAI AKU DAH PERANGAI MACAM SIAL.

PERANGAI MACAM SIAL= PMS!

BINGET UH SIAL! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

2010-05-25T21:30:00.001+08:00

HOW DOES IT FEEL TO BE ALIVE?

SUCKS.

Cos God has yet to kill two faced bastards in this world, that's why.

2010-05-24T21:27:00.000+08:00

3 months ago pic. Pathetic ey? Bloody hahaha.

God knows how fucking infuriated i am now.

God knows how much i hate people who talks shit behind my back.

Satan knows whenever i am beyond hot temper, even God can't do anything about it.

Two-faced inhumane shouldn't fucking exist.

I wonder why the fuck God let those creatures live in this world.

Let alone the world is already pathetic, but combine the world and them makes my life a miserable one.

And one more thing, I am not your bloody SOCAI. However you spell it.

I am referring to whoever you are that sweet talked to me blablabla shits, but behind my back, you're doing different thing.

Siapa siapa yang terasa, itu korang punya pasal eh.

Sesiapa yang termakan cili, dialah yang terasa pedas sampai mulut dier terbakar ngan api. _|_

I am not afraid to say that, YOU TWO-FACED PIGS ARE LOSERS. :)

2010-05-16T15:08:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was an awesome Saturday with the gangs; Fit, Apiiz, Farhan, Mimin, Chacky, Fir, Mansur, Lutfi Babyface and Adil Jacky!

It was damn fun, despite the long distances that we walked from City Hall to Bugis, and from Bugis to Orchard. And then head back to City Hall.

My legs were blistering like mad. And my handbag was heavy laa.

I barefooted two times while all of us, except for Farhan and Mimin cos they left while when we were about to make a move to City Hall MRT.

Many thanks to Fir and Lutfi Bbyface for carrying my handbag. Goddamn it, i makde you guys like a fool. :(((

But they were okay with it. Woahh. :O

CHEEEZYYYY! I AM STILL WAITING FOR THE PICS TO BE UPLOADED!

I want my gorgeous pictures! Teeheee! x)

2010-05-12T23:00:00.000+08:00

It's been a while since i've last updated my blog.

My apologies for not updating it.

I occupied myself with school, family, close friends and work.

I turned overexhausted when it comes to blogging.

But i guess i'm not that tired today.

So i guess i wanna keep my blog smelling afresh? Haha.

For the past few days, i've been too busy. A lot, and i mean A LOT of things happened unexpectedly. Jyeah, tell me about it.

Currently, i'm listening to 25 Minutes by Michael Learns To Rock.

I swear this song made me turned emo. HAHA.

Berfeeling feeling jiwang la yee. x)

My lifeline is going on good so far, though there were moments where it's totally fucked up.

Oh wells, it runs around to all individuals ey.

About my love life...i've no comment. Haha.

But i miss him so much, though i managed to meet him the other day!

God knows how happy i was. :D

I guess that's about it?

Oh gosh. Look how freaking dull my blogskin is. Gotta EXTREME makeover about my blog.

So long.

I hope to see you again soon, sir.♥

2010-05-06T09:38:00.000+08:00

I'm bored.

I'm in class right now having MFDI lesson.

I like the lesson but i despise when it comes to theory and lecture.

It takes the teacher forever to complete the topic.

So right now, i am just waiting for break time cos i'm superly duperly huingry to the max.

And after break, i wanna do practical. Fucking major project. 5 more pages to complete the document.

Just imagine if everyday (except Friday) is like this, I'll be like a zombie.

I hate to wake up early and be in school by 8.30. Pftt.

But i love MFDI, so i have to sacrifice.

Many things are running in my mind now.

MANY.

I don't know what am i thinking about.

But one thing's for sure that someone is on my mind 24/7.

Dearest, you know who you are.

I've been dying to meet you and hug you so damn tight.

But both of us with our daily tight schedule, each of our own.

Fuck our lives. =(

But i really hope that i'll meet you. It's been a month over since i last met you.

I'm missing you every now and then.

2010-04-28T15:44:00.000+08:00

And i hope you can feel my heart.

Cos it is pumping softly.. for you.

I told you, my love for you will never change.

I do still love you.

But..do you still love me as much as when we were together?

I'm in need for an answer from you.

I always remind myself that YOU are the only guy whom i truly love most.

Only God knows how keen i am to meet you desperately. =\

2010-04-26T14:51:00.000+08:00

Sorry for not updating my blog. Stupid lah can't access my blog when i am at home. Hahaha. Right now i am at school, being bored and fvcking random. I hate my new form teacher. Fuck siak. I miss Mark Lee. :(((
My blog is so smelly and kinda dead. All thanks to me for not updating it frequently. Lalala.
Aku sumpah kepada tong sampah yang berbulu bahawa aku mendak giler sampai aku rasa nak termampos gitu. Haiyaaaa.

I need to say this; Safiee, i miss you very much. I really REALLY want to meet you, badly. :'''((((

2010-04-18T01:03:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry if i didn't message you or chat with you. For the past few days, i've been in dilemma. I've seen the worst of me. I wanted to chat/message you, but the awkwardness attacks me just right when i wanted to contact you. I'm sorry to make you like this. I'm sorry. Truly sorry. I guess i'm missing you too much, even though we're no longer together. :'(

2010-04-14T23:16:00.000+08:00

I hate being in dilemma. God help me. :(

2010-04-14T21:55:00.001+08:00

:'(

2010-04-11T23:46:00.002+08:00

WOOT WOOT! TOMORROW I'M GOING BACK TO SCHOOL! WOOT! I CAN'T WAIIIIIIIIIIT! WOOT WOOT! :DDDDDDD

2010-04-10T00:38:00.000+08:00

Please read this.

I'm scared.

I'm really really scared.

Few guys have started contacting me back.

And those few guys are the ones that wanted me in their life so much.

Please help me. I'm scared and i just don't have the heart to entertain them.

:'(

2010-04-08T22:46:00.001+08:00

Every time when i wake up from sleep, i shed a tear or two. And then, i smile, cos the first thing that always appear in my mind, is you. Only you. :)

♥

2010-04-07T10:35:00.001+08:00

Even though our relationship has ended, this isn't a goodbye.

You know it.

You know that you're the only guy that i truly love most.

You know that you're always be special to me.

ALWAYS.

No matter what, this heart of mine will still belong to you.

I'll always remember our sweetest memories.

I'll always remember the good times we had for each other.

I'll always remember the quote, "Don't predict the future."

To sum up all, i will still love you, now and in future.

Thanks for the memories, Safiee.

You taught me how to appreciate love, and now i do.

I love you, dear. :')

THE FOUR HORSEMEN.

2010-04-06T21:57:00.000+08:00

Solo cuts off, but hell, the four of you still got the balls to perform that kind of jizzonyourpantsass song! I LOVE METAL-LICK-YA! =D

The twist of fate.

2010-04-05T02:38:00.000+08:00

I realised i'm being such a jinx to EVERYONE who is close to me. Whatever i do, seems to be all wrong. I realised all these while, my life is being tested on the line. I realised that i'm the sun to everybody's eyes. I can feel their hatred and pain towards me. I can tell it the moment they show/tell their expressions to me. Fuck you, i'm not being emotional. I'm just splatter all it out here. Cos it has been on my mind almost all the time. Seriously people, what's the use of living? I just can't stand the fact that i am actually a bloody inhumane to others. That's why people treated me so bad. I know you people don't need me. So stop being a drama fuckin' mama that you miss me or whatfuckinshits. Fuckin' tool piece of bullock.

2010-04-02T22:56:00.000+08:00

So yesterday was April Fool's day. It was also my first monthsary being with dearest hubby.
The day before 1st April, i was working. After work, i headed home and took out my handphone. The first message from him was; "i want a break up", and then followed by another message, "oh come on, let's settle once and for all". I was kind of shocked. But after a while, i remembered that it's April Fools Day. So, i told him, just give in. It won't work for me. And yeah, the first plan made by him was totally an epic fail. Haha!

And when the prank doesn't work, he pretended that he's moody and such. Like wtf laaa. The bloody matter was dragged till like 3 am? To the extent that our 1st month outing was "almost" cancelled. I was mentally traumatized. Haiyo. Wonderful eh? Thanks a lot for that sayang. -___-

So! Met him at Somerset. Actually, we were supposed to meet at 4.30. But infinity thanks to me, i'm late. Argh. I hate being late! Screw you Syarmeh! Anyways, we headed to Cathay Cineleisure and we watched the movie, "How To Teach Your Dragon". Omgisms! The movie was so funny and cute at the same time. Toothless' soooooooo adorable. Teeeheee! I wanna watch again uh. Such a funny movie!

After movie, we went to this shop where it sells S-H-O-E-S. Hubby has been eyeing on that black Vans shoe and a few others. And he kept asking me if he should buy that Vans shoe or not and i just say, "go buy la, nanti takda rugi!" So he bought it, and yes, the size that he fits was the last piece. NASIB eh! Cost him 100 bucks. Fuuuh. After that i bought myself a headphone! Pink skull! Woot woot! Heheh. Hubby bought one for his brother as well. :D

Gedebak gedebuk, we went to Bugis. Hubby wanted to buy a purse for his mum, but then we went to Bugis street. Bought myself 3 like dresses and hubby bought pants and shirt for himself as well. After that we went to eat at McDonalds. And we headed to the same place to buy a purse for his mum. So, i helped hubby by choosing a small, simple yet seemed delicate to his mum's eyes. And i chose one, a Bonia branded purse ,cos that his mum's favorite brand laa. Heheh. Also, he treated me LOG tshirt and LIME GREEN checkered tshirt. Hubby was noisy when i got that LOG design for my size but not his. Hahahaha! :P

Sat down, cracked jokes and there's always laughter from the beginning till the end. After that, we headed home. Sadly, hubby can't send me home cos he was working early in the morning today. But i understood. And so we parted our own to our own home sweet home. And i reached home exactly at 11 on the dot. Nice.

I was and still deeply in love yesterday. We had so much fun. Hope is GONE, cos we fulfilled it. I want more of this coming! Teehee.

010410, the bestest day i've ever ever had with you!

I LOVE YOU, HONEY HUBBY MUNCHKIN! Muacks!

P/S: Sorry for the late post. :P

2010-04-01T13:08:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 1st, dearest hubby. :)
Psst, will edit more later.

Going out in 2 hours time with him. Can't wait. :D

2010-03-28T22:56:00.000+08:00

YOU'LL

NEVER

WALK

ALONE.

L i v e r p o o l , you guys better give a HUGE bloody pool to Sundaland...i mean Sunderland, cos this is ANFIELD amd You'll Never Walk Alone! Impress me much, Mr Fernando Torres. XOXO.

2010-03-26T21:07:00.002+08:00

36 hours of not sleeping, worth going for the class chalet, playing in the rain, met hubby and spent time alone with hubby.

You people all care about sleeping only. Grow some tits and balls. There are many things worth doing even though you're already too weary.

I'd love today, forever. (Y)

2010-03-25T15:24:00.001+08:00

Make me drool with their sexy voices and performances. Yummy.

2010-03-22T16:37:00.000+08:00

I've made a once upon a time with you, and i hope you'll be my happy ending.

Never thought myself being in this way. I need improvised, for myself. Life will always be fucked up halfway.

Never am i this fuckin' sensitive. Never have i cried over a guy. I was strong. What had happened to the old me? Did it just died? I'm not going down just by this. I'm not going to fall. I want to stand tall for what i will do in future.

& the key to this are patience and be observant.

What would you do, if my heart was torn in two?

2010-03-21T23:04:00.001+08:00

YOU'LL NEVER WALK ALONE.

It's okay if we win or lose, but we will NEVER walk alone.

Liverpool FC for life! \m/

2010-03-19T22:40:00.000+08:00

Fuck. I. Look. So. Fucking. Chubby. [it was taken a year ago, anyway.]

I. Am. Still. Chubby. Though. [and this has got nothing to do with the post anyway.]

It was never my intention to make you feel moody.

It was never on purpose that i didn't inform you.

When things are becoming too complicated, my mood swings are all over widely.

It was never my intention to make myself sensitive, to make myself wonder aimlessly.

I swear, i did this, cos i just want your attention.

I swear, i did this cos i just miss you.

I swear, i did all this, cos i wanna feel your true love for me.

& i swear, that i am very afraid to lose you. *tears rolling down on cheeks*

2010-03-16T22:58:00.000+08:00

Two years old picture. Taken in Bintan.

I've just realised how time flies. I swear it is really fast.

All those times i spent most with my ex classmates and my primary school friends happened to pass just like that.

For example, i was on FaceBook, and i read Mech Haikel's status.

Few of them i know were close to me before. Within 2 minutes, i had 3 friend requests and all of them was from the same primary school as me.

And one of them told me how we behaved in school and those bad moments which turns out to be good moments.

It was very complimentary of my friend to say that i was the most craziest girl in school. And that's a fact cos i'm ALWAYS crazy. Haha!

We had two giants in school, and it was from our batch as well.

Who else if it's none other than Mech Haikel, and Azwan! :D

I've also realised that even your worst enemy can be your good friend. Which apparently, all those people that i and them hated each other, finally become friends after years.

Somehow, i regretted for being harsh and all. I miss my ex primary and secondary class/schoolmates VERY much.

JYPS batch 2005, let's make a reunion for ourselves!

JYPS for the fucking win cos we were once dominated our school! \m/

Peace!

Also to my friends from TPSS, i wish i can hangout with you guys after your big O's are over once and for all. I miss you people as well. Remember that. =)

I am not a strong lady. In fact, everyone has their own weaknesses.

2010-03-15T21:08:00.000+08:00

YOU CAN DO THAT?

- Taken from Afiq's favorite line.

For the past few days, i get easily irritated. I don't know what the hell is wrong with me.

What makes me behave this way? Is it because of my swollen eye or just my moodswing?

I guess hubby was right, i am different for the past few days.

I have been feeling so negative for the past few days.

I've no confidence in what i am doing. I'm trying to find the key to the question but i simply don't know how.

I need to get positive. I want my positive Syarm to come back to me. I hate to be pessimistic. It makes me like a useless girl. Where's my optimism gone to?

Bitch, clean yourself inside out. Don't get your ass seated in front of this bloody comp, you wrecked useless woman! -.-

I need my conscious back to me. Get all my senses right. WAKE THE FUCK UP, SYARMILLLLLL-A!

On the doomier side of life, i miss YOU to the fucking maximum. I mean it, dearest.

2010-03-14T02:09:00.000+08:00

Once again, yesterday, which was only 1 hour and 44 minutes ago, was my another FML and also I love today day. INDEED!

As you all read my previous post, that was my plan. It happened.

Tiring as fuck, crazy as fuck, hyper as fuck.

Market, Pastamania with FCLS, and went to help out at for my cousin's wedding.

Went there and met my mamus and mamis. Heh.

Helped here and there.

At around 9 plus, i saw abang Asri! He came here all the way from KL.

Miss him a lot la.

The first thing i saw him, i immediately shouted, "Abang Asri!!!!!!!!!!!"

He was surprised and happy at the same time. Hehe.

The last time i saw him was at Malacca during her sister's wedding which was like 4 years ago! WA LAO! Haha! Lama per!

Lepak-ed with him and my other cousins at the other void deck. Chit chat and cracked a lot of jokes.

Kecohhhhh banget! Took pics, but not a lot.

Will take more of it later. Wooooo.

And i wanted to go home at 5am but my eyes can't take it any longer to open so my other cousin sent me home.

Pichas!

Cute la tu. -.-

Sabrina the busy nosy girl.

Favorite cousin, Asri!! =D

CUTE OR WHAT! NICE OR WHAT! STYLE OR WHAT!

The gifts are all nice sia!

So awed by it lah.

I guess my right eye will remain sepet till God knows when.

My mamus and mamis keep teasing me about my right eye.

Haiyooo! Pity i sia. :P

Part II will be coming soon laterrrrr.

I WANNA SLEEP.

BYE!

2010-03-12T21:13:00.003+08:00

Today is a FML day for me.

I hate today.

Firstly, i almost lost my dearest wallet.

Luckily i misplaced at 7-eleven where i bought maggi instant.

Thank you, honest man for returning it to the worker. God bless you!

I was damn relieved can? Hah.

As i was walking back home, i saw 2 mice at a grass patch.

One of them was following me.

I quickly fastened up my walking pace.

Kept turning back and it was still following me, to the extent that i said this in my heart, "FML! FML! Stop following me la fuck! Go and follow your friend lah! He's at the grass patch!"

Heng, never follow me till at the traffic light.

I seriously hate today just because of that!

But on the brighter side of life, i get to meet my lepaks people and hubby! =)

He isn't feeling well today. :(

I think tomorrow's gonna be a "FML and I love today" day.

I am so going to get really busy tomorrow.

My cousin's wedding is going to be held on Sunday.

I have to go there tomorrow and help out with others.

On the other hand, i may be accompanying FeezyyyCheesyyyLemonyyySqueezzyyy to my workplace tomorrow for his F&N purpose.

But before all that can happen, i must die die have to wake up early in the morning and go to the market!

WTF WTF WTF! I've not been to the wet market for 2 months already. Wah piang! -.-

This and that, shits here and there.

It's gonna be worse with my swollen eye! ARGHH!!

Right now i'm chatting with Haikal and FeezyyyCheesyyyLemonyyySqueezzyyy on msn.

Haikal is so damn irritating lah.

Keeps telling me that he always prank Zalehah, one my classmate as well.

Like cb, so budak budak lah!

GROW THE FUCK UP, HAIKAL!

YOU'RE FREAKING 17, NOT 7 OKAY!

BLOODY NOOB!

Once again, FUCK MY LIFE!

2010-03-10T22:33:00.001+08:00

This pic is already 2 years old. Awwww.

Pffft. -.-

My right eye is becoming from BAD to WORSE. I swear i can't take the pain anymore. I'm going to the clinic/poly, yet again.

I don't know what to update for today.

Oh, now is WWE Raw. Woohoo! Undertaker is sexy, as always. (Y)

My right eye itchy, even though it's swollen. Fuck it lah.

Today's test at school gives me a heavy headache. There were too many codes that i typed out, just to make a bloody web page, though i managed to finish it on time. (Y)

As usual i meet up my lepaks people.

I went to my workplace, just to check what time i'm working tomorrow. And yes, i'm the cashier! :DD

I don't know why i like to centralise my entry.

It seems pleasant in the eye and makes my post longer. Fuck. Lame. I. Know.

What was i talking about again?

Oh ya. Ayiz, thanks for sounding that rascal. He seems to be afraid of you. Thanks. A. Lot. And. I. Owe. You.

Endra, aku nak bilang kau ni. Semakin hari perangai kau dah makin terok. Perempuan sundal pon kalah.

Memang sajak lah muka kau macam pantat ayam, abeh tu muka mataer kau macam pantat itik.

Dua dua kental. Tapi kau lagi kental pasal mataer kau masih yp. Awwww. Can't you find any more matured looking girls? Sumpah depan peach tea bottle aku yang mataer kau pon suka seek attention. Tsk tsk.

You're the firestarter, i'll be the unleash of hatred.

I miss my dearest hubby. I miss you la giler! Hehehe. Oh Friday, please come fast. I wanna meet him so damn badly laa. Tak bedek. :P

Are you guys satisfied so far?

Uhh, am i as well?

I think i am talking to the wall and the monitor screen. No one can take my lame-ness shit other than my closest friends and hubby. Heh.

KAY BYE!

P/S: I love you and i miss you, ♥. I must remind myself that you're the one i love. Muacks. :)

2010-03-08T22:16:00.000+08:00

That's my new haircut.

Also, that's my nephew, Izzan! :)

Today was absolutely awesome can? I don't wanna elaborate further but boyfiee treated me to Swensen's and we bought a pair of necklace that has a bullet thing hanging for the both of us! That was the most sweetest thing anyone can ever give it to me. After walking around the Causeway Point, we spent time, only both of us. I think i just love it how we spent our time. And halfway through, i was kinda pissed. No, not because of my boyfiee, but the guitar pendant, pink friendship band, and that lime green bangles. Guess what? I threw it away just like that. Frankly, i will never regret myself for doing that, really. Thanks hubby for breaking that bangles and somehow that pink friendship band, even though you didn't manage to break it. Hehe! But anyway, i just love today, the moment i spent time with you. Fantastically fabulous and awesome.

I want more of that coming, kay hubby. You know, i know.

P/S: *Hello, mr ex boyfriend who wants to act cool in school, you're gonna get into deep shit tomorrow. Omg, i just can't wait to see it happening. Pray hard, nerdy guy. _|_

Another P/S: I love you very very much, hubby. I wanna be by your side every minute and every second. My heart grows fonder for you day by day. Even though you always pinched my tummy, bully me or makes silly faces to me, my heart belongs to you only, Safiee. Muacks! :) ♥

2010-03-07T22:53:00.000+08:00

Our first picture together.

No one can separate us.

Wo Ai Ni, Safiee.

MUACKS!

2010-03-07T02:25:00.001+08:00

I don't give a fuck about you anymore. You can have it your way, while i have it my own way. Myself, Fit, Afiq and Apiiz just don't care what's going on with your life anymore. If you are reading this, all i wanna say is that you're not a good friend but you're good at listening whatever shit your beloved bf talked shits about us to you. You have seen the good side of me; cheerful, kind, sacrifice things for you (i bet you'll be asking what shit am i talking about), open minded, etc. But you have also seen the bad side of me; swears a lot. But just a few moments ago, you have known the WORSE of me. I told you, i don't care what i said. My mouth, my problem. I'll probably get shits from your boyfriend but guess what, i am not scared. You have yet to know what your bf had done behind your back. So bitch, kneel down, beg and ask what had he done especially to you. Cos it won't make us affected anyway, except for you. When you know the true colors of your beloved bf, don't cry and ask help from us. Oh! Yaaaa! I forgot that you have a wide circle line of friends. Of course you don't need us. You have friends that are much more smarter, popular, hotter, sexier and etc than us. Before i forget, i can never forgive both of you, and i can never forgive myself for releasing my true colors, but i guess it's worth it after all. So long and BAD BYE.

2010-03-06T13:06:00.001+08:00

Lepas satu dah settle, lagi satu pulak yang timbul. Korang tak boleh ke tengok aku senang hati? Mesti ader masalah korang nak bagi kat aku. Aper? Kirekan aku ni pembawa sialan uh ni? Musibot sia. Lagi lagi kau. Kawan yang aku boleh percaya, akhirnya semua orang benci pada kau pasal kau ni dah sah two faced motherfucker. Sekarang, aku tgh ader high blood pressure, gara gara kau, aku macam gini uh sia. Mata aku pon tgh bloodshot. AT THIS POINT OF TIME, kau nak buat baik2 ngan aku eh. Takpe, teroskan ngan kau nyer play eh. Tak lama lagi, aku akan tukar kan kau nyer play. Jangan cabar aku. Kalau aku nyer kesabaran dah out of control, maknanya kau memang nak cari nahas dari aku. Sekarang kau bukan kawan aku. Aku dah tak kenal kau lagi. Selagi kau tak sedar aper yang kau buat kat kiter orang, selagi itulah aku tak AKAN maafkan kau ngan mataer kau. Kau take care.

2010-03-03T21:48:00.000+08:00

I was so tied up. Fuck it. You have made my day turned bad. You phony chump. You rascal. You son of a attention seeker bitch. You made me mad at you every time you walked pass me and my friends. You made my eyes turned bloodshot and make my blood pressure gone high. Trying to seek attention from me. I hate the fact that you were with me. I am not proud to have you the last time. I hate you. Everyone hates you and your actions. I wish i can kill you, without getting into any troubles. Last few words, I WISH YOU DON'T FUCKING EXIST IN FRONT OF EVERYONE'S PRESENCE.

Why must it always be me? I don't get it.

Breathe the air in and let it FART out, Syarmy.

I need my love now. =(

2010-03-02T23:28:00.000+08:00

Look at that guy in that picture..no, not the cat, i mean the GUY. Back off whores, he's my property. Don't lay a finger on him, or else i might turn into an ugly witch and harm you. (Macam faham.)

Okay, so it's been like 0.000055768days since i last post with a very LONG post.
I guess my mood for blogging long post is back. Heeee. =D

I skipped Lifeskills lesson cos i was like really dying to see my handsome sapao boyfriend at Novena.(Well, actually to Yio Chu Kang but met him there cos he works there).

The first thing that i do upon his arrival was hugging him so tightly and gave him a peck on his lip. Heeeeeeeeee! =D

Proceeded to this building and collect his payroll. On the way to that building, he pinched my flabs and i went, "OUCH! SAKIT LAAAAA!" And he shows me his silly face. Hehehe. How cute.

Gedebak gedebuk, took the bus back to YCK Mrt Station and we went to Causeway Point and we ate at LJS. He brought the Golden Deal 1 with 3 pieces of chicken while mine is only 2 pieces but he finished eating it FAST. As for me, i ate like some bloody turtle, like that lah.

Gedebak gedebuk, we went to Woodlands Civic Center and he wanted to deposit his payroll cheque at DBS bank. I told you, DBS and POSB are associated with each other, hubby! Nyahahah. After that, we proceeded to a nearby park and settled down. We were like making fun of people who walked pass us and we cracked nonsensical jokes lah. God knows how many times my flabs got pinched by him. :P

Went to inter and, just nice 168 came. Quickly hugged and kissed him. Reached home at about 8.30pm. =D

I swear, he made my day. I wish there's more of these in the future.
I love today, when you're with me.
I love you, honey. :) ♥

2010-03-01T14:14:00.000+08:00

010310 marks the beginning of our relationship.
Promise are meant to be kept.
You know and i know what's inside our own promises to each other. :)

I LOVE YOU, SAFIEE. ♥

2010-02-25T21:01:00.000+08:00

Happy 17th birthday to you, Mr Camel.

Though i'm no longer your classmate, i do still treasure our friendship.

You see, i do still treasure friends like you,

even though you're such a nuisance at times,

the one that provides laughing medicine,

the rescuer of boredom during lessons,

making fun of others and the teachers that we hate.

I miss your craps and jokes.

Enjoy your day, Abdul Rahman.

A friend like you, i will not forget in near future. :)

Much love,

Syarm 'the Buffalo'. (LMAO!)

2010-02-22T13:43:00.000+08:00

My world and your world are now foes. You are no longer my friend. My attitude feeds your ego. Your ego feeds my hatred, and my hatred feeds our argument and thus end it just like the rain has finished pouring.

Not only i hate you, but there are A LOT who hates you as well, midget.

I know you still care about me as a friend, but i am not you.
Cos whatever you said to me, never can i forgive you.
Too late to tell all your "truth" to us, cos in the end, we knows all the words from your mouth are all lies.

Once again, fuck off from our lives.
Thank you.

2010-02-13T22:42:00.000+08:00

I ~~love~~ FVCKING HATE Valentine's Day!

And so the definition of Valentine's Day means;

Valentine's Day is nothing but a day for people in relationships to rub it in other people's faces.

Oh wells, Happy fvcking Valentine's Day. Let's ruin the happiness jyeah.

However, i am fvcking glad Dave Ellefson is back with Megadeth. In your face suckas! _|_

2010-02-07T20:51:00.000+08:00

I hope that i can go gigs for this month. Cos there's freaking loads of gigs coming up this month and i am pretty sure my schedule's gonna be packed. Wooo!
However, there's no way i am going to paitao the gig cos I need to let off the inner me desperately!

Mosh Party 4, Rock-A-Thon, Mass Ritual I and Mass Ritual II.

4 gigs that i might be attending this month.

Haiyoooo, nampaknya pokai lah aku tak lama lagi. Tsktsk.

2010-02-04T23:47:00.000+08:00

I was getting ready for work. Ironed my uniform. Get myself ready. Wore my shoes when suddenly i had a call from my aunt.

Jawdropped. Unexpected. We don't even think it will happen this way. At work, i was doing my work constantly and no one told me to pause for a moment. I was stoning all the way and i didn't realise what was i doing at work.

When i received the news, without hesitation, i called my dad, my aunt and everyone that i can call.
I told them, that my UNCLE passed away, unexpectedly. My uncle is my dad's brother. Even my dad didn't know the new UNTIL i told him how he died, etc. Inallilah is all he could say.

Frankly speaking, I've never been this sad when someone passed away. But this uncle of mine was so dearly to me. I treated him like my own father.

I'm not going to school tomorrow. Gonna visit the funeral. I'm sad. I'm remembering those past times when my uncle was alive.

Death waits for no mankind. It happens anytime, anywhere.

Rest in peace, and may Allah bless your soul. I'll miss you. :'(

2010-02-02T10:37:00.000+08:00

In classroom now, damn bored, sleepy, stoning to this computer screen.
I am really really really really really really sleepy.
No, i am not lying.

The randomness about the iPad joke i created is still in my mind.
I wish the invention does exist. Ain't that cool.

Fvck my teacher. She speaks like a machine gun and the lesson is very dull.

I want some Metallica now. No no no, maybe some sleep will be the best choice.

And yes i am fvcking hungry.

Now you know why. Cos i've been typing bullshit in this post cos my mind's empty, so does my stomach.

I don't even know what am i typing here. Really. I just follow what ever my concious ask me to.

I WANNA EAT. AND SLEEP. Bye.

2010-01-31T16:07:00.000+08:00

SENTOSA

WAS

FUN

&

DOPE!

K bye.

2010-01-29T22:44:00.001+08:00

Few days already. Okay okay i know i did not update my blog that much. Minta maaf banyak banyak.

I've lost my sense of blogging already. I don't know how to start building my sentence structure. Is it because i have nothing in mind or i do have but don't know where to start and what to end with? My very bad. =(

Anyways, i have few things in mind now. Tomorrow, there'll be a school event that will be held at Siloso Beach Sentosa. I can't wait for the fun! What's even more fun is that i've got free entry. Limited la katakan. Haha! So, the event will start from 9 am and ends at 6 pm. However, i'll be there till 3 pm cos i might be going for Bualguitar Metal Matinee 4: Harmony & Dissonance mini gig.

The mini gig will be performed by 4 bands which are; Thy Fallen Kingdom (YEAHHH!), Deus Ex Machina, (WOOOO!), Scaphoids (YAHOO!) and CON.VER.GENCE (HURRAH!). It'll start from 4pm and ends till 6pm. So, better get your ass down to Six Studio at Jalan Besar people!

What a day to start, and what a day to end.
Sumpah aku ~~tak~~ EXCITED gilerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! *grins*

From here, till then. *dances while sitting*

2010-01-26T09:31:00.001+08:00

It's useless for me to private my blog.

Aku private blog aku confirm orang malas nak sign in ngan password korang. CHISSSS!

Sorry for the random. I am officially bored in class and i unprivate my blog cos i pity this person by the nick of RENDANG.

Challo bete!

Edited;

I edited this part of just few seconds after i posted the one above.

I'm having lesson now but it's like i'm at home surfing internet all the way. Photoshop is noob. Boring. Common. Haha. I don't fvcking know what the hell is wrong with me man.

Okay, seriously what the hell am i blabbering sia. Obviously i'm hungry.

Okay, it's break time now! Wooo! Gonna grab for my breakfast and make my brain function well or else i'll turn nuts! =D

2010-01-24T23:27:00.000+08:00

My apologies for not updating my blog for like many many many days already that can accumulate to weeks.
My internet connection was down for the past few days, hence i can't update blog.

How am i doing. That's the first thing you guys wanna right? Well, i've been okay, with the new school i'm in which is ITE Bedok, and i take Multimedia as my full-time course. So far, it's not bad. Classmates were good to me, so i'll just go with the flow.

Working life! HAHAAA! It's great, cos i'm not working for 2 weeks already. WOOHOOO! Lek sikit woiii.

Everything's a okay, just a bit shit here and there, but it's all manageable i guess.

It's just one thing that i am sooooooo deprived now, and that is, GIGS, HEADBANGING and MOSHING! I need it, like really badly. Haha! I need to do all this with my metal friends and my CHICKLETS!

Guess I am done for now. Woooo! Tomorrow school starts at 10am. Oh what a lifeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. =D

2010-01-10T22:39:00.000+08:00

For those who get to read my blog, congrats. :]

Cos i need some privacy in life. That's why it's now privated.
Chao.

2010-01-06T22:55:00.000+08:00

Tell you what. I hate people who are so goddamn overprotective over me. What? I don't have my own rights is it?
I'm not talking about my family. Damn, even they don't go HOHAA this and HOHAA that at me. Why can't i contact other guys? They're my goddamn friends, and hello, i know them longer than i know you. Yes, right now, i'm blurting it all out here. I don't care if you jaw dropped when reading this. The reason why i kept quiet when you're around is because i don't wanna say anything that may make your heart wrecked. People keep telling me that you're a nice guy, and blablabla, you are, but, at times, i hate the other side of you, which is overprotective, and i mean, TOO overprotective.
For example, when Robin came to my workplace, you actually told Fit that you're jealous. WHAT IS THERE FOR YOU TO BE JEALOUS ABOUT?! Robin is my new found friend, he's the one that wanted to eat at my workplace and slacked with me and Tina. I don't understand guys nowadays. Jealous for a small tiny weeny reason. I guess, karma has happened. Only you and i know what happened. & seriously, i don't need a ring to show how much you love me. You are wasting your money. By all means, i'm ready to pay half the money back, or full amount. Sweet of you, but to think back, all this shitz are just nothing.

I would prefer to be single.

In other words, SNAP AND WAKE THE FVCK UP!

2009-12-31T01:21:00.000+08:00

Manager sucks, and it's even worse that she comes from Philippines. I was working 11 straight and long hours and she scolded me and nagged at me for just a small, tiny weeny mistake. Supposedly when she nags or scold, i won't smile. I just have this no expression thing on my face. And there she goes, "if you show me that face again, i will make sure...."
And i walked off clearing the plates. FVCKYOULANABEYCHAOCHEEBYE! If i smile, you thought i'm joking around, when i dont have the expression on my face, you thought i'm angry or something. You're the manager and you have the rights to tell me my mistake, but don't you HOHAA this and HOHAA that laa! You know this thing call, "talk in a nice and "learn from your mistakes" manner? Thank God you're a fvcking M A N A G E R. If you're a dishwasher, i will probably criticise you and you 3rd world bloody country sia. Oh heck, you're from Philippines. YOU SHOULD BE THANKFUL FOR WORKING IN OUR GODDAMN COUNTRY. Also, you even dare to say, show me your true colours laa. Fvckit, for now i'll keep it shut, but the next time, i might be very nasty. I don't give a flying fvck if you wanna fire me cos you're always overstressing yourself in EVERY SINGLE THING. It's true what they say, you're so obsessed with your job and you want everything to be perfect. Fvck you. Out of the 4 managers, you're the most suckiest manager ever in Pastamania, despite your needs are to perfect everything and shit. Face the fact, everybody hates you, cos your mouth is like "pantat ayam". Ahhh. Your mouth really resembles a chicken's ass. I got last few words before i end my post, GO BACK TO YOUR 3rd WORLD AND USELESS COUNTRY AKA PHILIPPINES BITCH! _|_

2009-12-29T03:16:00.000+08:00

Straight to the point.
I feel that the world is leaning on my shoulders.
I feel that even i have friends, they're invisible to me.
I feel that, people treat me as an invisible air.
I feel that, no matter how much good deeds i did in my life, no one will remember my good deeds.
I feel that, instead of remembering my good deeds and favour i've done for them, i get betrayal in return.
I feel that, when they're no longer my friends, they're my official foes.
I feel that, people treat me like a rubbish chute.
I feel that, i belong to nobody.
I feel that, even there's my boyfriend, i feel alone.
I feel that, i am a piece of shitcake to everybody.
I feel that, people hate me for no reason.
I feel that, if i made a mistake, people can hate me.
I feel that, God is my only friend.
I feel that, for those who do not believe in God are the most dumbest person in the universe.
I feel that, if an Atheist were to read that, i may be fvcked up and down.
I feel that, even if i were to get fvcked, they should know i have the rights to type what the fvck i want in my own blog.

In other words, i am all alone in this world.
Parents and God are my only lifesavers.

2009-12-23T23:33:00.001+08:00

Okay, it's like as if i did not update my blog for like 4095740958 years...FAKE!

Just came back from pasir ris park. Hang out with the familyyyyy... but Sufii wasnt there.

He's in Malaysia for now till Sunday supposedly. :(((((((((((((((((((

I'm tired............

Yes..............

Obviously.... i am bored.

Supposedly i'm off tomorrow but manager wants me to work so jyeah just work uhh.

Asalkan gaji aku jalan tapi takmo lari suaa.

What the fvck talking i? Nampak sah otak kau dah senget.

Okay, bottomline. I AM SUPER DUPER SLEEPY.

Can't wait for my pay.

Let's hangout at Pasir Ris park again and again and again!

Sufii, i m y v v v v v m. Take of yourself dear. I l y v v v v v m. =))))))))).

Lots of Love,

Syarm.

2009-12-15T15:30:00.001+08:00

I've been coughing non-stop for almost a week and i've been vomiting for 3 days straight. My face has becoming like a pale zombie, unfresh. I have yet to see the doctor cos i am stubborn. But i guess i HAVE to go to the polyclinic tomorrow and prescribed cough medicine, and maybe pills for my stomach or something. Blablabla. I don't have enough peace when it comes to sleeping. It's always the phlegm inside that makes my damn throat friggin' itchy and hence the cough. It's so horrifying to see myself vomiting 3 times this wee morning. Was otp with boyf and he told to go and sleep but i simply can't. This fvcking cough won't let me Rest In Peace in my fvckin' sleep. Oh wells, fvck it. Need to get ready for work later. Starts at 6 and ends at 11. Hopefully my cough isn't as bad compared to this morning. & i'm doing cashier later darn it! Now where's my honeyyyy? >.<

Syarm Hetf.♥

2009-12-10T19:58:00.003+08:00

HELLO READERS! =D

Okay, it's like almost one week i didn't update my temporary dead blog. Heheh. I told ya, i was so busy with work. Fortunately i was off for two days which was yesterday and today. Woooooooooo! Finally i can get more than 12 hours of sleep for two off days. Maner la aku tak GEMOK ngan BONCET! Haiyaaa!

I wish to blog a lot but i'm running out of ideas, sadly. Heh.Oh wells. D:

Oh, to spammers; korang nak spam, korang nyer pasal. Aku takda tima nak layan korang nyer karena la sia. As i said, i've got better things to do, fothermuckers.

& I AM SO GOING FOR LAMB OF FVCKING GOD!
WHO'S WITH ME FVCKERS?! HAILS! \m/

Syarm Hetf.♥

Sufii Was Here (:

2009-12-04T02:23:00.002+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE!!!

Hahaha..Sufii here. (: I'm posting this on behalf of Syarm. Thanks ahhh sayang for saying I jakon (well it is my first time) xD

30th November 2009 (Zakk Wylde Meet)

On that monday around 5.15pm, i went Pastamania to fetch Syarm. She's uber cute ahhh in the yellow uniform and the cap. xD Hehe. Okayokay..then she said nak jumpe fit for awhile,so we did. Fit was with Mizan. Main catching and kicking and stuff uh. Hahaha. I swear telinga boleh pekak uhh when Syarm jumpe ngan Fit. (: We all went to some bawah block to gossip and lepak. Fit was sweating in the wrong places after all the running and chasing with Mizan. Haha. And to everyone!!! Syarm can really pack punch when it comes to Pepsicola. Haha. After much catching up and talking, Me and Syarm had to leave ald. Nak jumpe ZAKK WYLDE KAN. Haha. Fit kene beli ayam or sumthg. Haha.

Waited for 10 quite long though. And i realised that sayang get bussick sometimes ): Awwww..not long after sampai jugak Katong there. The queue punye panjang. Haha. OK. Cut short ehhh to Zakk Wylde. \m/

First thing, Zakk Wylde gentel guitar for like 15mins? Like HOW DOES HE DO THAT? Haha. Then it was QNAs. Wanna know how to be a Rock God? Plastic surgery and penile extensions, Mr Wylde said. Haha. He damn friendly uhhh.. then came the time to meet the Man himself. HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAAHHA.

Syarm was first up...she had to wait and wait and wait punye lamer. She dapat salam the undertaker guy and THEN ZAKK WYLDE!!!! Hahaha. She got 1 and half hug, got to shake his hand, and an autograph. I also had pretty much the same thing. (:

After that, we were at the busstop giggling and laughing cos too happpy ahh. Haha. Bnyk mepek jugak ahh bout wedding ahh, zakk wylde jealous of me ahh and many more.

Headed to tamp to makan macs. Then went under her block to lepak for awhile. Hehehe. xD Syarm can be very cute when she giggles and more when i do my pouty face with the squints. ^^ We hugged and more laa. U know. (:
And I would like to thank Zakk Wylde for bringing us together. \m/
The day that we would never forget 30th Nov '09. It was 12am ald and we kissed and hugged to wrap things up. Then I sent her home. Gahhhh.

\m/ S.S.S \m/

Sufii Sayang Syarm!!!!!

or Slaves Shall Serve (the cover will be up by the end of the month k sayang)

So here are the pics people...

ZAKK GETS TO HUG SYARM!!! (:

I think this is our first pic together? At Blackhole \m/

Okayyy...so dah malam, Nights everyone. Sweet dreams. This is Sufii signing out.

Gahhhhhhhh...I love you Nurul Syarmilla Binte Januir!!!!

Sufii Staine \m/

2009-12-03T16:02:00.002+08:00

SORRY!

I AM NOT GONNA UPDATE MY BLOG TOO OFTEN!

And spammers.... -.-

Please, i can't be bothered to spam around and cari pasal.

If you dislike me, give me a good reason why.

Cos from what i know, i don't pick up fights.

You hate me cos you're jealous.

Hah, i'm pissing you so badly that you're farting out with acid now.

I don't find faults with people for no fvckin' a reason.

If you said i'm a fanatic and kental, go on and tell the whole world that Syarm is this and that.

Cos the bottomline says, Whoever starts the fire, he/she will end it oneself.

If you don't get, then BETTER GET IT.

2009-11-27T20:09:00.003+08:00

Lay no eye upon my eye, lay no voice upon my crying. Set no truth above my lie, shed no tear upon my crying.

So i was at home the whole day. Went to the mosque just to see sheep slaughtering and brought home 4 packets. How boring this year's Aidiladha. Nyet.

Just so you know, i am no longer your typical soft hearted girl people. I hold grudges. Be it you are my dearest or NOT. Accept the way i am, for who i am now. Cos some motherfvckers made me turn to be in this way and only my, myself and i can change Syarm.

Other than that, Au revoir.

Syarm Hetf.♥

2009-11-24T23:38:00.002+08:00

It's time for me to say my own freedom of speech.

Do you guys actually think out of the fvcking box?

I bet no right?

Well, what i meant "HARDCORE" kids is actually i AM referring to DEATHCORE kids.

Who the fuck are you people to shut my holes up huh?

Oh oh, i'm responding to the question, "If "hardcore" kids do hardcore dance, then why you metalheads HEADBANG?"

Are you stupid? ARE YOU THAT STUPID? The traditional of headbanging in metal scene has been going on ever since Black Sabbath was formed, or perhaps, the beginning of heavy metal scene.

Don't ever compare between these two scene. JUST DON'T.

No matter how much you people wanna kill me just for this shit, i will not tolerate to do the same thing as well. I am NOT your typical soft-hearted chick.

Well, this a big FUCK YOU to some of you major suckers.

Syarm Hetf.♥

2009-11-22T16:16:00.005+08:00

NEXT TIME, THERE SHOULD BE ANOTHER DEATH UPON ARRIVAL!

Wanna know why? Cos yesterday's awesome motherfvcking gig made my fvcking day.

Those bands, except for Shadows of Miasma, made me headbanged and moshed so hard that i have bruises all over. I had my left hand skinned. Thanks to that fvcking "so tak perlu" wooden fence near the stage.

Fvck it. They shouldn't put that fence there. It is so unnecessary damn it.

Stillborn made me headbang. Unfortunately only Tina and I headbanged to that band. Haiyaa.

Next band, i don't give a damn cos i'm not really into that band.

After that, Incarnation of Seth performed. Though my brother is no longer in that band, but they do still kick asses. Their new original is damn eargasmic to my ear. Sadly, the chicklets dominated for that band.

Went outside and chill, we were interviewed by Singapore's own Razor TV. Heheheh! Coolio i know. :D

Whorehouse Butchery, Truth Be Known and Wormrot kicks asses too! Truth Be Known is the reason why my left hand was skinned. But hell, it's a metal gig and surely there will be bruises all over. And as for Wormrot, they're good but not much moshing. Oh yeah! During their performance, i was having a slight fever. Unlucky siol. Heheh. But thank God i'm fine now! :D

NAFRAT PERFORMED THE BEST! It was so goddamn hectic. Squeezy, fat dudes moshed here and there, we chicklets headbanged so hard and i got to body surfed three times! Hell yeah!

After Nafrat performed, went outside and met Sufii. I missed out a few bands. Sad but true.

I helped him to gatecrash in for the gig. Heh. Better thank me booboo! xD

Shadows of Miasma performed, hardcore kids were in it. We, the metalfvckingheads, had a great time making fun of their bro0oo0ot4a4a4l hardcore dance. Dafi's friend literally lay on the floor and did the swimming thingy. Hahaha! I swear, the chicklets and i, few guys cracked our asses off.

Fvck you all deaFcore fvckers. I felt so satisfied as i get to make fun of them. Seriously, fvck them. Fvck them hard, but do you guys really wanna fvck those losers? L M A O.

After they performed, Thy Fallen Kingdom performed. As usual, they kicked asses to the max. Sadly, they only sang three songs due to running out of time. Cheebye laaa! They managed to sing The Neverending War, Unchained and The Last Day. Fvck siaaa! I wanted then to perform the song, "The Observer". Damnitdamnitdamnit! Well, even though they only get to perform three songs, they really made us headbanged and moshed. Kudos. \m/

After that, all of us decided to leave. Trained down to tamp, and Tina, Sonia and Zul alighted at Pasir Ris. Left only me, Sufii, Afiq, Mech and Dafi. Went Mcd as Sufii was hungry. Heh.

Yadayada, all of us separated. Left me, Sufii and Afiq. Accompanied Afiq to the bus stop and waited for the bus no.3 to come. And finally, Sufii sent me home. Thanks a lot booboo. :)

Oh ya, i'm missing out something.

AZRI! I NEED PICTURESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!

Horns up y'all! \m/

Syarm Hetf.♥

2009-11-20T15:49:00.003+08:00

ONE MORE DAY TO DEATH UPON ARRIVAL III!

Can't wait to headbang and mosh till i die in that very own pit. LOL.

Let's dominate the place tomorrow, my dear chicklets. \m/

Oh btw, my boncet is getting bigger. O.o

Thanks to the food that was offered at my workplace and eating late night at home.

(Y)

Syarm Hetf.♥

2009-11-17T11:12:00.004+08:00

I CAN'T WAIT FOR DEATH UPON ARRIVAL III!

Now you know addicted i am for gigs. Hahahaha. I need to mosh more to headbanging. Cos i'm already working at Pastamania and if i were to do cleaning, i have to bend down a lot of times and my neck's gonna hurt REALLY badly.

I love my job soooooooooo much. And it's a bloody fact. :D

Saturday, please hurry. I can't wait and prove to the guys of our girl power for DUA III! \m/

Syarm Hetf.♥

2009-11-15T12:19:00.003+08:00

DEATH BY BROWNIES GIG WAS THE SHIT!

I enjoyed the gig, in fact, one of the best gigs in 2009! Met the rockers at Lavender MRT. Walked down to the gig location. I went inside the pit straight away. Xanadoo performed. All of us were moshing and headbanging. I headbanged beside Jaarvis and the band was the shit!

After that Mercenarian performed. It's awesome. And again, i sang Master of Puppets! Sorry guys, i think i did screwed most part of the timings and the lyrics. Actually, i don't wanna sing. I wanted to mosh for the song and sing along. But this Rosewood insisted me to sing but i rejected the offer. All of a sudden, Sufi and Fit pushed so hard that i was at the "stage". So yeah, had to sing. But i enjoyed la ehh. Thanks a lot guys. :)

After that, a few deathcore bands performed. Don't really like deathcore. Went out from that pit. But Beyond Suicidal performed Unanswered and i only get to see them performed that song for the last few seconds. Bleargh. Fit, Sufi and I made fun of the hardcore dancing shit. Haha.

Roadkill performed next. That band was awesome too. We actually danced more to headbanged to most of their songs. The tunes makes me go gelek-gelek uhh. LMAO! Sufi sang one of the songs along with the band. Pity that guy forgot some of the lyrics. Haha. The last song they performed was Paranoid; Black Sabbath cover. Fit, Sufi, Han and I were like dancing along to the song. But hell, it was damn fun!

Metalgunz performed but i don't really support that band. So, went out for a while. Then AOS performed. Last few minutes before TFK performed, we went in. The violinist was so pretty and tall, i admit. I think Age of Sinfonia's genre is similar to Therion. Oh well. Nice one indeed.

And then the bestest of the best, saving the best for the last(not last band to performed for that gig actually), THY FALLEN KINGDOM! That band was hella awesome, as always. The first song they performed is The Neverending War. All of us were like windmilling and some of them were moshing. Crazy audience TFK has ever had huh. LOL! Throughout their performance, all of us were moshing and headbanging continuously. No joke. That band was the Gods for that night. When all of us were moshing, most of the guys pushed me to the ground and someone's boot kicked on my left leg, causing a big lump and blue black as well. Same goes for my left waist. Now i realised that when i moshed, it turns out that the minor injuries came from my left side. Haha! Weird but true. ALL HAIL TFK. Tefeeek! Hehehheeh!

After they ended their performance, Fit and I changed to our new clothing and wanted to go to Zamzam restaurant but we were sooooo far from that location. We ended up at Sim Lim Square. Her dad fetched us home. Reached home at about 11pm.

& my dad was disappoined that i didn't ask inform him that i went yesterday. Luckily i was let off with a warning. :)

Pictures are on the way soon, hopefully. :)

Syarm Hetf.♥

2009-11-13T10:34:00.005+08:00

Fvck you asshole! But why? For lying to me about him. Fvck you!

What's your fvcking purpose telling me what he "said" to you about me?

I bet those words all came from your own filthy mouth. Are you trying to make feel like i'm in the air or something? Wtf is wrong with you? Are you actually a human being?

No. I fvcking don't think so. You're inhumane.

Your brain has officially turned 180 degrees and there are gaps in between your skull and your brain.

Seriously, what's your main PURPOSE, Mr Asshole?!

I believed what Fit told me.

He really do like me but there's no need for you to lie whereas he doesn't say anything about me!

And when the three of us were slacking at 56, and i was taking a short nap, you borrowed Fit's hp and told her that he already has a girl, a 17 year old, from Northland Sec.

SERIOUSLY, MISTER! I DON'T KNOW AND I DON'T THINK YOU ARE A HUMAN BEING!

And one more, does Salihan even say anything about me? If yes, PROVE IT!

Since when i had admired him?

And why the sudden for him to tell the matter about me to you? I bet all these are fake, UNTILL you have proven me wrong.

For now, your words are all lies.

Just like the testaments in the bible.

Once again, fvck off and die, son of a mother sloth. _ | _

Syarm Hetf.♥

2009-11-10T21:51:00.003+08:00

I guess life's getting manageable and balanced. Sometimes times are good and sometimes, the other way round. I'm getting a job PRETTY soon, retaking of O level Malay is over. My life's a bit relaxed now; well, maybe when i'm starting to work, the difference of relaxation of my life will be completely different i suppose. But hell, this is life and you HAVE to accept the way it's already been.

I need to confess something here. I miss headbanging and moshing! Again, I'm deprived about gigs. Gigs are on 14th and 21st Nov. Holy shit! I can't confirm if i can attend on both gigs. I'm afraid that my job schedule clashes on both dates. Unlucky or what. -.-

Life's never been fair to us. I hate you, fate.

Syarm Hetf.♥

2009-11-09T20:10:00.002+08:00

Guess what? Retaking of O level Mother Tongue is in one days time and i didn't even touch a single note full of malay proverbs. I'm not ready and i think i'm gonna do badly. Perhaps, i may be getting below C6. Wow. I am an absolute fierce woman indeed. Haha. Oh well, fvck O. :P

Also, i'm rather glad that i'm getting a job at Pastamania. Am getting the uniform this Wednesday. Have to head down all the way to Commonwealth and get a typhoid jab. Bleargh. But i can't wait to work, really. Heheh.

Wanna know something, fellow readers? I'm sleepy.
Okay now fvck off and die cos i'm fvcking down with my "so-tak-perlu" post.
Bye.

Syarm Hetf.♥

2009-11-06T19:50:00.003+08:00

I applied a job at Tampines Mall's Pastamania. Hopefully i can get the job. I'm in a desperate need for a part time job. God help me please.

Oh yaaa. Life's a miserable, as always. It doesn't change one bit for me. Fvck it anyway. I totally don't give a damn. It's beyond too much.

Syarm Hetf.♥

2009-11-05T19:54:00.003+08:00

SOMEBODY SAVE ME PLEASE. I'M DROWNING IN PAIN AND ANGER AGAIN.

Sometimes, i think that i'm a jinx. Whatever unfortunate incidents that had happened and is happening in my house all revolves with me. But of all people, why me? What wrong have i done, such that misfortunate things happened. I can't take it anymore. I need freedom. I need peace in mind. I need to be in a place, where i can be all alone, taking the stress away from my cramped head. I need a punching bag. I need someone's shoulder to cry on when i can't manage things usefully.

HELP. HELP. HELP. HELP. HELP.

2009-11-04T22:27:00.002+08:00

You're my listening ear when i am feeling down, angry or any negative mood. You're so far away from me, yet you are so close to my heart. When are you coming back here? I really need you.

You're living a in good and luxurious life in Dubai, but can't you see that your lil' sis is suffering all the assumptions, naggings, blames given by the creatures within the four walls?

Patience was the need. But i already exploded it and i did it right in front of mum. Mum has never shut her holes up but i guess i did.

You weren't here for me. You're working and you have take lots of responsibilities. I understand. But don't you have the urge to call me, asking me how am i doing and how's life UNTILL just now, you finally chat with me on MSN. I let off a heavy relief. You do still care for me.

Now the question is; when am i gonna see you back here? I'm struggling hard here.

2009-11-04T20:49:00.005+08:00

FVCK YOU. FVCK YOU. FVCK YOU. FVCK YOU. FVCK YOU. FVCK YOU. FVCK YOU. FVCK YOU. FVCK YOU. FVCK YOU. FVCK YOU. FVCK YOU.

I FVCKING HATE WHATEVER THAT IS HAPPENING TO MY LIFE RECENTLY AND I'M GETTING TOO TIED UP. I FVCKING HATE THE SYSTEM IN MY HOME AND I AM SO BLOODY PISSED OFF WITH THOSE CREATURES IN MY HOUSE AND I HATE MY FORCED LIFESTYLE.

THIS IS GETTING TOO MUCH. I WILL MAKE IT EVEN WORSE. I AM BECOMING VIOLENT.

DON'T LET THE OLD ME RETURNED. IT'S UGLY FOR SURE.

THE VIOLENT SYARM HETF.

AND

I DON'T GIVE A FVCK IF YOU HATE ME.

DON'T YOU PEOPLE EVEN DARE TO CHEER ME UP COS NO MATTER IN WHAT WAY YOU GUYS WANT ME TO CHEER UP AND PUT A BLOODY SMILE ON MY FVCKING FACE, IT AIN'T GONNA WORK FVCKING ASSHOLES!

2009-10-31T17:31:00.003+08:00

Life's getting bleak. It really sucks. I hate it when this happen. But why now? I sound so depress. To the one with higher power, please let me live life fully. What kind of shit am i living in right now? Every single day, it's the same old routine and i'm getting sick of it. Getting a job is like i'm waiting 1000 goddamn years for me to enter heaven. Calling this country as a fine country is totally bullshit.

I'm always broke. I really need a job so that i can have my own pocket money. Mum keeps on nagging at me to find a part-time job. Dad doesn't even care about me that much. But i'm glad they're not really that strict towards me nowadays, ever since my N's are over. Mum wants me to be independent. Yes, of course i wanna learn to be independent but from where am i going to start?
There's no border line. It's tough.

I'm having Bridging Programme in school starting this Monday. Can't wait. Seriously, i do miss school. Call me an asshole, i don't give a flying fvck. I wanna make it to sec 5, BADLY and i'm yearning to get good results. But base on what answers i wrote in all the papers makes me a person with a very low self-esteem. I screwed most part of it, but i'm hoping that God will help me. I did help myself in order to sustain good results. Good is good enough. Excellent is better. My early revolution is to suffer a lot, enjoy less in 2010, if i were to make it to sec 5.

Oh God, please make me a better person for i have gravely sinned in this pathetic world.

I want to have a good and simple life.
No stress, no depression, no anger in me, just a good life.
& that's all i could ask for. :'(

Syarm Hetf.♥

2009-10-30T21:21:00.002+08:00

Babble babble bitch bitch
Rebel rebel party party
Sex sex sex and don't forget the "violence"
Blah blah blah got your lovey-dovey sad-and-lonely

Stick your STUPID SLOGAN in:
Everybody sing along.

Thanks Randhir, thanks Raj for saying i'm manly enough and i got the balls. I'm proud of it.

I'm sleepy and i can't wait for SmackDown! Can't wait to see my most most most favorite wrestler in action. Voooooooooot!

Currently, my mood's a bit down. Don't ask me why.

Gotta listen to M-16 to make feel happy and feel manly once again.

I'VE GOT BALLS SUCKAS!

Syarm Hetf.♥

2009-10-29T21:57:00.003+08:00

GUESS WHAT?! SHARIFAH ALFIEYAH IS SODOMIFIED BY ME!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! THIS IS GETTING AWESOME PEEPOS! =D

2009-10-29T19:16:00.002+08:00

Let me tell you this. I love Sodom and it is none of your business. I love them so much that i listen to their songs almost all the time of the day. You hate Teutonic Thrash Metal, that's your seluar dalam cos i don't give a flying fvck about your opinion(s). You hate them or any other thrash metal bands because you can't accept that the genre is fvcking heavy and possibly one of the best metal genres of all time.

Oh Tom, oh Bernd and oh Bobby, I float when i listen to your songs.

Please make your asses down to Singapore. I'm dying to see you guys perform live.

The awe of love pulled out of the roots
Just rolling thunder we found
Pregnant with the tears of shame
But never let'em out

We shoot'em down
We shoot'em down
We shoot'em down

Free fire zone with my m-16
Vendetta burns inside
Wiped out their lives for eyes unseen
Mercy chilled to the freezing point
To the war

Blind religion, clouded minds
Called by the name of war
223 body penetration
Before you hit the ground

We shoot'em down
We shoot'em down
We shoot'em down

Free fire zone with my m-16
Vendetta burns inside
Wiped out their lives for eyes unseen
Mercy chilled to the freezing point
Free fire zone with my m-16
Vendetta burns inside
Wiped out their lives for eyes unseen
Mercy chilled to the freezing point
To the war
You are imploring to my aid
Machine gun fire scorn
Life corroded from inside
Remains in silent force

We shoot'em down
We shoot'em down
We shoot'em down

Free fire zone with my m-16
Vendetta burns inside
Wiped out their lives for eyes unseen
Mercy chilled to the freezing point
Free fire zone with my m-16
Vendetta burns inside
Wiped out their lives for eyes unseen
Mercy chilled to the freezing point

Free fire zone with my m-16
Free fire zone with my m-16
Mercy chilled to the freezing point
To the war...

- M16.

SODOM UP YOUR ASS! \m/

AKU SUKA SODOM SUARSSSSS!

Syarm Hetf.♥

2009-10-28T11:57:00.002+08:00

LOOK AT THE PICTURE ABOVE! HE'S MINE AND FVCK YOU ALL!

My personal favorite wrestler owns YOUR favorite wrestler.

Haha! Sorry for the random post. I'm just deprived on getting WWE's Braggin' Rights VCD/DVD.

Fvck Batista. Fvck Rey. Fvck MVP. Fvck Kane. Fvck all the wrestlers.

ALL HAIL THE DEADMAN. *hails*

Syarm Hetf.♥

2009-10-26T19:13:00.004+08:00

HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEY PEEPOS! ;D

Yesterday gig's was awesome when Truth Be Known, Flawed Element and Thambi K Seaow performed at Mosh Party 3.

Fvck the rest of the bands.

Oh, too bad i didn't get to watch Wormrot cos i have to be home early.

There were only few metalheads and the rest are "hardcore" kids.

Pathetic hardcore dance. Just stare at them with my fiery eyes. Chey!

When Truth Be Known performed, there were only few supporters siak. Bloody hell!

The rest went outside and only metalheads and few hardcore kids were inside.

And it's even much more pathetic that i am the only female who headbanged and moshed.

Tsktsktsk. Where did the love for the music scene go to man?

I windmilled beside Jaarvis and he said, "very windy". Thanks eh bro. -.-

Oh ya, for those who still don't know about this, Jaarvis cut his hair!

Well, it's not that bad but long hair can windmill and produce nice wind! Hahaha!

Flawed Element wasn't that bad either. Very rockish/metalish. Keyboardist mata sepet siak. Muahahahahahaha!

But overall, this band rocked. (Y)

THAMBI K SEAOW WAS THE SEX! Shyam, Burp, Ahmad and the drummer(forgotten his name uh), wore football jerseys. Ahmad wore a white jersey, doesn't even look like a Man U or Liverpool okayy. They also wore pelikat sarong. Shyam wore Man U, Burp wore Liverpool, so did the drummer.

I swear they were hucking filarious. A'ah! Tak bedek!

Haha, pathetic mosh started when they played Satan's Song that lasted how many seconds i don't know, with Satish on vocals. Pretty cool.

And after performing their 2nd or 3rd song, they wanna play football. SEMPAT SIOL.

Shyam asked the supporters,"Who's got the balls.....or the tits to come out in front and become the match commentator?"

Woah cheebye! I was damn paiseh when he said like that. And the supporters all eyed on me and laughed. LOL siaaaa!

But Shyam asked them to applaud for me since i'm the only female supporter for TKS.

*kembang dalam hati siaaa. hehehehehehe*

Okay! Shyam asked all of us to split into two. Jaarvis was appointed as a goalkeeper.

And they need a match commentator. Tak pasal2, that drummer pointed at me and Shyam kept calling out my name to stand out. I refused BUT there's this one bastard who pushed me and stand out. Woah siaaak. I wonder who's the guy that pushed me.

So yeah, i was the match commentator and i have to shout "GOAL!" or just blabber shit lor.

Fvcking paiseh siaaa.

But TKS was really great. And i laughed my ass off all the way cos their lyrics of the songs are way tooooooo funny.

Oh well, guess i am done. Will update with a new post when i'm free.

OH WAIT! LIVERPOOL WON OKAY! 2-0!!

DOWN WITH GAY U! YOU'LL NEVER WALK ALONE!!!!!!!!!!

Syarm Hetf.♥

2009-10-24T21:23:00.003+08:00

That guy behind me is a dummy! ^ ^

Lmao! Just kidding.

The pic above was taken last year and look, i was chubby.

Alright. I'm kinda excited, nervous and a bit irritated at the same time.

I'm excited because i'm going for tomorrow's gig!

I'm nervous because i'm too excited.

& i feel irritated cos many of 'em keep asking me about the gig's info. -.-

Well, the purpose of posting the pic above is because of one reasonable reason.(got such meaning?)

I miss school.

& i miss every little hilarious thing that happened in 4N3.

I miss my own peepos.

FVCK LA ASAL AKU EMO SANGAT NIIII?!

I can't wait to headbang, fvckers!

Wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!

Oh ya, kan aku dah cakap, cina tu tak call. Babi siak!

Syarm Hetf.♥

2009-10-23T21:15:00.003+08:00

Rotting at home is like you're burning inside the 7th level. Stayed at home for 2 days straight. Can't i get any fun activities? Why must it always be b to the o to the r to the e to the d to the o to the m that enters my mind almost all the time. Can't stand being cashless. Can't stand being nagged. Can't stand every single tiny weeny negative things that came all around me. I need it all washed away. But how?

And that person have yet to call me whether i am getting the job or not.

Excuse fvcking me! Kalau aku tak dapat Admission pon, kan ada job positions yang lain apa. Dah dua hari aku tunggu kau nya call, tapi takda dalam aku nyer receive call list. Aku binget uh siak!

Kalau besok kau tak call aku, maknanya kau tipu sia.

Pasal kau cakap ngan aku, "whatever it is, i'll call you in two or three days time."

Takkan korang sebok sangat kan ngan kerja korang. Aper? Free time tak tau nak call per sia.

Babi nyer cina. Gi makan taik aku lagi baik uh eh. _|_

Btw, I miss NPCC very much. I miss the memories, especially in Bintan! Gahhhh.

Hopefully, those mofos jolly well organise that bloody annual camp almost perfectly or else i will say that Tango is 1000 times way better than you frigging useless crap bunch of calling yourselves bloody NCOs, aka Unity.

Cos i'm coming back to see how you peepos progress like.

Syarm Hetf.♥

2009-10-22T18:17:00.002+08:00

Hey yoooooooooooooo! ;D

Firstly, i'm sorry for not updating my blog yesterday and the day before. I was tired and my comp went a lil' nuts. It keeps logging off automatically.

Alright, let's move on. So yesterday, went to Escape Theme Park with Fie, and we applied job as Admission. Hopefully, both of us will get the job. Gahh, i really need the job badly. *crosses fingers*

After that, I accompanied Fie to Pasir Ris MRT as she wanted to meet her boyfriend. After she went off, i went back to the bus inter and waited for Mech. Fit called me that her dad is driving her to Costa Sands Resort. When Mech arrived, both of us met Fit outside OCK's taxi stand. Her dad brought us to the location by car. And there's this line between Fit and her dad. It's pretty hilarious.

Fit's dad: Mana block G?

Fit: Sebelah block F. (answered sarcastically)

Fit's dad: Ohhhh.

Me and Mech laughed our asses off. Boleh layan sak bapak dekni. Tsk!

When we reached the place, Apiz, Ayam, Badariah, Choonye, Ray, Enot and more was there.

Even some of my friends were there too. Syakiran, Arep and Hairi.

Ate, camwhored, and blablabla.

Overall, we did have some fun. Went off from the place at 8:30pm with Fie and An GorReng.

By the time we went out of the place, saw Jacq, Iliyas and Shareen.(forgotten that guy's name, bahh!)

Bumped with many Tampinesians there. Fie bumped with her coach and blablabla.

Waited for the bus and i reached home by 9.30. (Y)

Picxies!

2nd post might be up later. Depends on my mood. And i hate insomnia! _|_

Syarm Hetf.♥

2009-10-19T20:16:00.003+08:00

Kinda bored. I don't know what to do really. Just got home. Went to TM Mac and slacked with Mech, Tina and Zul. Tina and Zul ate while me and Mech played Tina's laptop. Heh. After that, we headed down to 945. Fit, Fie and Afiq was there. Not long after that, Fie and Afiq had to go off. Ten minutes later, Fit went off, followed by Mech. It was only me, Tina and Zul.

Blasted a few black metal songs from Tina's laptop. We camwhored, using the webcam.

The pics are all funny and ugly. But hey, looks are nothing, but it may be deceiving.

Gedebak gedebuk, all of us separated our ways to home sweet home.

Reached home by 8. On the dot.

Can't stand rotting the whole day by letting my ass landed on my rocking chair and play the computer for 24 hours. What an unhealthy sight.

And i'm still in desperate to find a part time job. Fvck!

I just need to let my wallet to be full, and not letting its stomach empty.

& I AM SO DEPRIVED ABOUT GIGS! 21st Nov, CAN YOU PLEASE FLY FAST. SOMEBODY IS REALLY DESPERATE TO HEADBANG AND MOSH. Gah! Wa buay tahan la siaa!

Ohohoh! Actually i got this info a few weeks back but sometimes i tend to remember and forget it just like that.

This coming 25th October, there'll be a gig at *scape, Mosh Party III!

I've been to both Mosh Party I and II. Quite awefvcksome. But i just hope this coming gig will be a better one cos Mosh Party II was a bit shitty, whereas Mosh Party I was hella awesome. Oshiego performed during that gig, so was my brother's band, Dextromethorphan, last time it was known as Deko Tora.

Here's the flyer.

I'm still not sure whether i am going. But i wanna go, but just support a few bands.

Cos there surely be one, two, three or four hardcore taik bands playing on that day.

& i can't stand hardcore fashion. So whatever. Gahhh.

Other than that,

Au Revoir.

Syarm Hetf.♥

2009-10-17T17:33:00.002+08:00

I don't know what the hell is wrong with me today. My moodswings are on the loose. I've already thrown my tantrums and anger to my mum. Just because i was hungry. I find it totally ridiculous sia. And i felt guilty cos i've scolded my mum and now she don't really speak up to me. Regret for throwing such an ugly tantrum to an elderly that has been taking care of me ever since in her womb, carrying me everywhere for 7 months! *smacks forehead and smacks computer table*

I got moodswings when i'm having menses. And fvck yes i am having it right now. I hate menses.

It's troublesome. You gotta change it at least twice or thrice a day.

If it's overflowing, there's a spot on the pants and you have to change, both panties and short/pants.

Some more when having menses, cramps starts to merge. The pain is deeply hell. That's where girls start to have moodswings, well for me at least. TOTALLY HATE THIS FEELING.

And guys! You're lucky that you don't have any menses, no need to pregnant. And i guess you Adams have no moodswings, or in other words PRE MENSTRUAL SYNDROME. & yet, most of the guys are like girls having their menses. Mengamok sana, mengamok sini. Complain also like girl. I don't think there's a need for you guys to complain right? Unless you're trying to say that your brother's tiny hole has blood and it's been flowing for 7 days straight. O.o

Okay, that sounds so gay and wrong man.

Nevertheless, we are all human beings and we do have feelings. But guys throwing tantrums is utterly gay.

It's better for you guys to take a tweezer and pull your below off and there you are, a girl now.

Fvck it, you see! My moodswings has changed from one different mood to another. And now i'm talking random.

I seriously don't know what is wrong me with me. Somebody knock me in the tummy and head please. Cos i'm hungry and hungry people's brain cannot function properly.

Just like this person who is blogging nonsense here, and that's SYARM!

Syarm Hetf.♥

2009-10-15T23:23:00.002+08:00

Yooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!

Today's post is gonna be the same like the previous post.

As usual, woke up at 11. Went out from the house by 1.45pm.

And sorry Fie i was late, but i still did buy for you Pink Dolphin riiiight? :)

Train-ed down to Bedok and met Fit and Apiiz at Bedok Inter. Took 168 to Woodlands. Mech aboard the bus from Tamp Library bus stop.

Supposed to take 911 by the time we reached Woodlands. And we got to know that we took the wrong 911 bus. Took that 911 and went to inter but we did not alight. That same bus goes to Djinn's place. And we slacked at his void deck till 5.30 pm as Mech doesn't wanna go home late. I swear we were laughing our assets off. Totally hilarious. We were at the bus stop and waiting for the bus to come. Djinn was looking at us from far, at his door step there. We camwhored. And when the bus has arrived, Fit and I shouted the goodbye song across to Djinn. Fvcking hilarious man.

And we took 168 at inter. As we reached tamp, Mech is the first person to alight, followed by Apiiz, Fie and I, and last person to alight is Fit. Fie and me went to bk and eat. And something unwanted happened, which i DO NOT want to elaborate here cos it's too fvcking personal.

That's how i rot my day.

I guess that's about it.

And to Fie; please cheer up aite? Don't be too sad. Sometimes he didn't mean to hurt you with harsh words. This is LIFE baby. :)

Syarm Hetf.♥

2009-10-14T21:07:00.003+08:00

As usual, woke up at 11am. Got a call from Tina if i'm coming down to Pasir Ris which in the end i did. Get out from the house by 1pm. Bus-ed down to Pasir Ris inter and take another bus. Bodoh nyer aku! Sonia fetched me from the bus stop and we went to 741. Tina, Zul, Andrew, Raj, Reindeer(lol!), Aisyah and another girl was there. Sorry babe, totally forgot your name already. :P

When i first arrived, Andrew suddenly asked me if i have ciggies, and all of their faces like so depress like that. We got coins, I mataoed only $1. HAHA! Fit cab-ed down to Pasir Ris. She was at the playground. Myself, Sonia, Andrew, Raj and Reindeer ran towards her. It was so damn funny lor. Just for the sake of Winner! Haha! Went to that plaza and they mataoed just to buy mee hoon. Seriously, all of us were damn broke siaa. Head back to 741. After that, Han came. Later, Mech came. Hah, I fetched him a few metres away from the bus stop and i asked him to carry me by the back. And he carried me and he almost fall. So do I la ehh.

We made a lot of noise and blablabla. Lepak-ed there and about 6 we went off. At tamp, lepak-ed with Djinn and Rae. Reached home by 8.

Let the pictures to the talking.

Gay couple spotted. Hahaha! xD

That's all about today. I know it's boring but at least i didn't leave my blog dead okay.

Before i end the post;

Happy 16th Birthday to Muhammad Iliyas Bin Rashid!

Finally ko dah 16 tahun. Boleh tengok NC 16.

Well, this guy is somehow funny and also retarded. Lol!

Whenever we eye contact, we tend to point middle finger to each other, and it's no reason at all.

We are totally random. Btw friend, enjoy your day.

May God bless you, and good luck for the N's results. :)

Syarm Hetf.♥

2009-10-13T23:03:00.004+08:00

Woke up at 11am. Yadayadayadayada and went out at 2pm. Met Fit, Fie and Djinn at Small Mac at Tamp Inter. Went to Bugis, then to BK. After that, all of us accompanied Fie to Bras Basah Complex as she wanted to buy some artstuff but in the end, she didn't buy anything. Train-ed down to Tamp and headed to 945. Mech, Pie, Andrew and Raj was there.

Later that evening, Sonia and her other friends came in to join as well. We had a good time. Yadadyadayada, all went back home by 7:30. :)

Sorry ah eh, i'm kinda lazy to update but my fingers forced me to do so. So yeah, at least i did update about today's event. Thanks to my 10 little fingers and here are the ugly fugly but funny pics.

Good night, world.

I'm dead tired.

Syarm Hetf.♥

2009-10-12T22:36:00.002+08:00

Here are the pics when celebrating Fit's bday.

Fie, Mech, An GorReng and I hid pics.

After the "SURPRIIIIIIIIIISE", cake-eating and camwhoring session.

Obviously this big guy with us have gone crazy.

Apiz Senza was about to snap when this Big Mech pushed me and there you go. Fit posing tak menjadi, Mech gone insane and me got pushed to one corner, candid! -.-

& yeah, all of our efforts have paid off really well, to the extent that we made Fit cried with tears of joy. By how? Go and read Fit's blog cos i can't be bothered to blurt it all out here. My fingers are tired from exercising and running around the keyboard.

2009-10-12T18:46:00.003+08:00

I'm rotting at home. As a matter a fact, i just got home. Met up with Fit and went to Hougang to hangout at Fie's house. We watched vids of Kumar cracking jokes about sex and the government, and the three of us laughed out loud and we conquered the house,(as Fie's mum wasn't at home). After that, we watched Jeff Dunham and Achmed, Jeff Dunham and Peanut and 2 of Russel Peters vids. It was seriously damn hilarious. Sometimes my laughter would sound like chicken, sheep or even one Fatimah Rocker. Lul!

Cab-ed down to Tamp Mall. Went to Cotton On and tried out that black jacket. Gahhh! I really want that shit badly siaaaa!

When i was outside, mum was nagging over the phone to ask me come back home fast and i get irritated easily, which brings my mood really down. & now i'm feeling slightly moody.

And dad just got home, and he nags. OMG & WTF?!

He nags even worse than my mum sia. Can't stand people nagging ya know. Firstly, it's goddamn irritating. Secondly, when people nag their level noise is like "cina mampos" noise. I know that you peepos out there surely hate that bastardized irritating noise.

Now the computer clock shows 7:07pm. And i am suppose to bring my niece to the clinic as she is sick but wtf am i doing in front of the comp. *no ideaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa*

While blogging this, many things are running in and out of my mind.

Looking for a part time job, family, friends, this, that, you, the world, and the dead.

Okay seriously i'm talking cocks now.

Oh well people, i guess i end it here. Need to bring my sick niece to the clinic and it's fvcking 7:10pm now.

Oh mummy, i want FREEEEEEEEDOM! Hate curfews! Pffffft! -.-

Syarm Hetf.♥

2009-10-09T19:01:00.006+08:00

Oh fate! You have reminded me about this. Thanks a lot.

ANYWAYS.

Happy 16th Birthday to Nur'Aini, aka Kecik. Oh girl, you are finally 16 years old.

Somewhat you are still short, but you are always cute and kind to me and others.

I know at times i'm being a bitch to you, and i realised all my mistakes that i've done to you.

Forgive me for all my wrongdoings and let's continue this friendship.

I just hope that you will pass N's with flying colours and may you be successful in whatever you want to be in the future. I miss hanging out and study with you, dudette. I am NOT lying.

Love you much sweety pie. :)

2009-10-09T18:11:00.004+08:00

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!

Like Ohhhhhhhhhhh Myyyyyyyyyyyyy Gawwwwwwwwwwwd.

I'm EXTREMELY happy.

Cos N's are FINALLY over.

Only one more to go; Retaking of O malay.

Ahhh nvm, i can do that much later.

BUT I AM REALLY HAAAAAAAPPY!

When F&N paper has ended, we were dismissed and me and few of my friends went, "WOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!"; to show how much we felt relief that it's finally over.

But on the other hand, i am worried for the results. Shit siaaaa. I'm like lost hope already. GONE CASE. Maha gone case shealsxz.

However on the brighter side of life, i wanna release all these fvcking shitxzs out of my mind and i need PEACE.

I'm just waiting to headbang and do the windmill.

I windmill. People with long hair windmill. Even bald-headed people do windmill.

LET'S WINDMILL ON THE 21ST NOV PEOPLE! *smiles widely to the maximum*

I've never been this happy and relief, really. :)

It would be much more happier and share the joy if she was still alive. *sigh*

Syarm Hetf.♥

2009-10-07T22:01:00.001+08:00

GONE CASE.

I'M BALDING.

Syarm Hetf.♥

2009-10-06T22:08:00.005+08:00

The day you left me, i was all alone. Why is fate harsh on you? Why must you leave me, suffering all alone. I've no one to turn to in this family other than you. Though you're not a human, but i know deep down inside you, you do think like a human being. When i'm sad, you quickly jump on the bed and sit beside me. When i'm happy, you'll ask for food. When i'm sleeping, you would go into my room and sleep in as well. But now, everything changed. Your absence are killing me. I know you can't reincarnate but i know up in heaven, you're watching me. When will i die, just to see your face again, Ferra? When? I wanna die. I hate living in this pathetic, humiliating world. I wanna play with you up there. I wanna spend my time with you up there.

I miss doing wrestling with you.

I miss when you scratched me with your sharp claws.

I miss bathing you.

I miss feeding you.

I miss your green sparkling eyes.

I miss doing "hi-5" with you.

I miss seeing you rolling on the ground outside the house.

I miss playing catching with you within the house.

I miss when you hide under the bed away from me.

I miss seeing you "kangkang" your legs.

I miss hitting your big but sexy butt.

I miss pissing off at you.

I miss being angry with you when you drink my drink in a cup.

I miss kissing you.

I miss hugging you.

I miss everything that happened between me and you.

I miss you very much, sweety pie Ferra. :'(

Syarm Hetf.♥

2009-10-01T20:56:00.002+08:00

Well, below this sentence are pictures of us playing badminton and chilling yesterday.

Went to school today to take my report card but my bloody form teacher was not in school. Screw it man! Buat penat aku jer jejak pat dalam sekolah. Anyways, meet up Fit at the bus stop opposite my school and we took 67 to Tamp inter. We meet up Fie at small mac and the three of us headed to Burger King to grab our lunch. We were damn hungry. Tak bedek. Fie and I bought Whopper Jr meal while Fit bought Mushroom Swiss Tendergrill. Sedap maaaaaaaan! Woooh!

After we ate, we bought curry chicken drumlets. There were three drumsticks, so just nice one for each of us. After that, we went to Isetan to check out handbags for Fit's mum as her bday is coming soon. We've already got three options for the handbags.

Next, we headed to X-Craft, 77th Street and Cotton On. We headed to CS; Montip. The 3 of us bought hair bands and i bought myself a ring. Hah. We got a call from Mech that he wanna lepak with us at 945. So, as we walked heading to 945, we saw him and we shouted his name out from far, but he couldnt hear us. So, we ran towards at the traffic light. It was funny cos we're panting like mad. Then, the madness began. Javanese vs Boyanese. : Eh Fit, sudah 9-3 stengah okay. Yang stengah pon markah kesian man. LUL! We ate ice-cream. Weeee! Mech, remind me to give you back the $1 okay? (Y)

As we had nothing better to do, Haikel drew Death logo on my hand. Not bad eh kau nyer drawing. Lawa la sey. Tak bedek. Heeeee.

About 6, Haikel went off, leaving the three of us. We camwhored quite alot. About 6.10, An GorReng came and slacked with us. Gedebak gedebuk, hakdush hakdush, we made a move to our own home sweet home by 7pm. :)

Btw, Fit took jump shot pics of me and Fie. -.-

Hopefully, tomorrow night i'll be able to make it for a night study with my BestGirls. <3

P/S; You're the reason that made my day VERY moody. Let's move on.

Syarm Hetf.♥

2009-09-30T23:17:00.002+08:00

I need gigs people! I wanna headbang till my neck is on the loose and mosh till my body has lots of bruise. And look at my old fringe. I need to go for an enhance, for my hair that is. Cos my hair has becoming like one Singa. Hah.

21st Nov, i'm waiting for your day to come and make MY day one of a hell, which is a good thang duh. Death Upon Arrival III. I'm going for sure. Woooooooo.

I WANNA PLAY BADMINTON WITH YOU GUYS AGAAAAAAAAAAIN! :D

Okay, this is seriously out of topic.

I need my BestGirls. I'm missing them a lot. ):

And not missing a few guys. You know who you are.

Syarm Hetf.♥

2009-09-29T21:12:00.002+08:00

I love babies. Babies make me smile. Babies make me go hyper. Babies can cheer me up. Babies make me happy.

Maisarah is 2 months old now. She's too adorable and i always wanted to pinch her cheeks but unfortunately cannot cos according to old people saying, babies will lose appetite. Gah! I wanna talk gibberish with her again. Cos talking craps with her makes her smile a lot, so do i.

Babies rules in YOUR FVCKING FACE!

P/S: 2nd post might be up soon. :D

Syarm Hetf.♥